I lost a little girl this past February. I can't describe my emotional state, but there was enough strife for me to switch from Reserve to Active Duty Army, and move across the county. I came with a mindset to deploy, b/c there's no question in whether this Iraq is going to fade away.
I had no plans to fall in love with a guy. But I did. He truly wants a family, and shares my grief of lossing a child. He wants me to deploy (b/c he's deployed, and he knows the importance of it in our career.) But he also wants to start a family (and marriage, of course.) So, we're having to settle for a few things. We're constantly going back and forth over what it is that we want to do. Have a baby? Don't have a baby?
Emotionally, I am so torn. Everything seems like a pregnancy symptom. I can't seem to get a hold on what I really should be focusing on now: my future deployment or my personal future...
2007-11-20
06:44:16
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Adrina P
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