hi i'm 16. ill start out by saying that all my life, ive always noticed boys more then girls which yeah, is sort of strange. From what i remember, i never wanted to be romantically involved with boys, i just wanted a really attractive best friend. You should know that at school, the majority of my friends are girls and ive been ridiculed and called gay and fag since the sixth grade. that's why i only have 2 male friends. In late august of 06, i was in my bed and suddenly, i had a panic attack. i couldnt breathe and all i could think was UGH I'M GAY OH NO OH NOOO. since then until now, ive been depressed about trying to find my true orientation. I spoke to my parents and they're ok with it if i'm gay and i'm very appreciative. I'm still really depressed though. i have fallen for girls before and gotten hard ons sorry, awkward ocassionally, but i cant view women as sexual icons and get turned on by looking at porn. If you don't mind, ill continue this on another entry
sorry if its long
2007-01-05
09:22:59
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Matthew R
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