In the beginning my relationship w/ him was ok, but he has many issues fromt he start, i still proceeded. I find myself not very depressed, I feel my dreams are very distant, my desires have left, and my self confidence is down to nothing. I feel very numb and very alone and helpless. I knwo I'm depressed and I know his negativity and the feeling I get from being around him is exactly what I explained. I don't feel happy and free around him, b/c I want him to be happy and free so we can enjoy life together. I try to tell myself to enjoy regradless but it's hard when he's here.
He has nothing. We moved into my parents to save money, he's 32 and has nothing for himself. I think I'll never be able to get on my feet with him, then I realize I'm depending on him. I use to be the most ambitious, freespirited, independent person, now I feel like the sand under the rock.
I am seeing therapist starting Monday.
2006-07-08
13:30:02
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fiestygirl
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