I think I'm just going to give up on making friends in high school. 'm a senior and will be out in 5 months. It's hard for me because of my depression, social anxiety disorder, avoidant personality disorder, and just hating myself in general. Sometimes I really want to be friends with them, other times I just get so frustrated with myself I don't even try and just keep to myself. They like me enough as an acquaintance I guess, I'm nice to them, and I think I'm going to get them all little christmas and birthday presents. It's like I guess I know they like me enough but I can't convince myself of that or go talk to them, and I worry that that has hurt my chances because they think I'm not interested but I'm just shy. I had facebook (myspace) for a while to keep in touch and talk to them a little more but I couldn't take the stress and got rid of it and now I've lost that connection and possibly upset them. But I just cant approach people.
2006-12-21
06:54:36
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leena
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