Why is love with friends so hard?
I can't even find allow myself to go to clubs with her because I am afraid I will say something stupid around her. I think she knows I like her because of body language I give off. I catch her gaze sometimes, and she looks away really fast as if she is embarassed that I caught her looking at me.
Why can't I just accept in my heart that she is ONLY a friend. I want to be her best friend forever. Sometimes, I dream about more than that. But, I honestly don't think I could handle that nor she could handle that.
But, I look at ways she is treated. I want to be there and protect her, to guide her, to love her, to cherish her, to be her love and to be the one who lights up her life and makes her laugh. I want to be the one who wakes up next to her in the sleepy eyed mornings.
But, why do I have these feelings? Am I able to let go of these feelings of mine or will they always be a part of me? By the way, we are both girls.
2006-12-23
18:03:24
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