Everytime, he tries to pressure me into sex, and I get all into it but hen I back down becuase it just doesnt feel right. I want my 1st time 2 be with someone I love & the guy that loves me back too. Me & my BF are together 4 all the wrong reasons; he is with cause he just want to use me for my money & sex. And I realized this after 4yrs it was then I didnt love him anymore and I knew he didn't love me either. I started to resent hi, when he started to mistreat me & hurt me. I dont know If I ever loved him, maybe I did at first, until I realized maybe he was just using me. I just know that I cant have sex with someone I dont love. That is just the way I am. I cannot have sex no matter how hot & bothered I get. I dont know if there is something wrong with me. but I just hink my 1st time can be so much better with someone I love. I dont know if ill ever find real love, but I dont want to miss out on that if should ever happen. I am just with my BF cause Im scared to be alone & familiar
2006-07-03
00:58:49
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