Okay, my life is in turbine right now. I am so angry all the time that I can just explode.
I have 2 children and a fiancee. I don't yell at the kids I snap at them about fighting, but that's it. I dont yell at fiancee, unless he starts yelling first..... so what's the problem eh?
Well the anger is so pent up that I feel like exploding. I shake and quiver. I find myself thinking horrible thoughts of myself. I keep reliving everything bad from the past..... A lifetime of abuse frome parents and exes. How can I get past all this?
The latest that happened that turned me around was I recently had a hysterectomy. I came home from the hospital and started hopusework within an hour of being home. Well now my bladder collapsed again and I have to repeat that part of the surgery.
I cant help but think that if my fiancee really loved me I would have been able to rest properly. He went through eye surgery and I took care of him for 6 months.... He just lied around soaking up the attenion.
2007-04-03
04:12:46
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