I realize that I will get many different answers and some people will get disgusted with me in the first place. I am married with three kids. I have pretty much come to the conclusion that I am gay. I am out to a few freinds who are cool with it. I have had sex many times with men. I "Like " women, but they obviously cannot give me what I want, or need. I have felt pressure all my life to keep in the closet, to be with women, to marry. I love my family very much, and it hurts. I feel like it may be the right thing for me, to lead the lifestyle I need, but won't I be hurting them?? Why do I feel like such a bad guy. I am 33 yrs old, and have been married for 6 yrs. Yes, I told my wife I had been with men before we got married, and she married me anyway. Now I tell her I believe I am gay, and I am a bad guy. Why?? I didn't realize it. I didn't try to decieve. If anything, I was decieving myself, trying to be who everyone else wanted me to be. I just don't know what to do.
2006-08-21
18:33:48
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