It's been a while since he left me all alone... Just the thought of it makes me break down and cry, especially when I reminisce about our memories together.
I know I shouldn't dwell on the past, move on, distract myself, and concentrate on my studies since I'm too young, etc. ...
But I JUST CAN'T. It's as difficult as having to gain the trust of a friend after hurting her feelings, just because you were blinded by the fact that you're breaking her heart and turning into a heartless b*tch. (but that's another story)
I'm already flunking my subjects (even the ones that I'm usually good at) just because when I try to concentrate, suddenly I'm attacked by the ghost of my past, then I start to lose focus. I can't even find serenity in my life anymore.
I know my mom has her own problems and I don't want to add to it, but I need her so bad since she's the closest one I've got whom I know has been through things like these.
2007-10-02
01:55:51
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