On the first day of school there was this boy that i have known but never really, knew. Once I got to know him I developed a crush on him. Then one day i found out that one of my best friends had a crush on him too. Suddenly it became a race. This want any easy race. This girl is perfect. Blonde, smart, pretty, funny, and more that i cant think of or probably type because my vision is getting blurry. After she told me that she liked him too, (but i loved him) we promised that neither one of us would go out wit him even if he asked them. Then, a couple of weeks later he asked her out, not me. All of my other friends knew that I liked him and they told him to ask her anyway. He did it right in front of me. I felt like I had jumped off of a 8 story building and landed on a knife. I burst into tears. Like I am now. But i managed to hide them until i got to the bathroom. And just so you know this wasn't any ordinary crush. I loved him. And I still do today. But I could just kill myself because I know he likes her. And when he asked her she didnt even think about the promise we mad or glance at me to see how I felt about it. She just said "Yay." Thats it. I felt so horrible i could have just shriveled up right there next to the tree. Everyone loves this girl anyways. Why did she have to like the one that I liked--strike that, LOVE? And silly me, I thought that she is sooo picky with boys that she would at least say "let me think about it" but no such luck. "yay", yay, it sounds so wierd so say to someone asking you out, but apparently he liked it. Can I die right now? And if youre reading this and you know that its you im talking about please dont get mad. im just expressing my feelings and dont get freaked out either. just read the rest. I know that he doesnt like me. He treats dog **** better than me. He can be nice sometimes, offering paper to me in reading class everyonce and a while. This girl I'm still friends with her but im so jealous sometimes i wish i could just change my whole life to be just like her so people would like me too. I cant do that though. I just hope that when im gone and theres no one to chase after him hes gonna realize that he loves me too.
2006-10-01
16:25:13
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