I have a few important things to tell you, and I don’t know the best way to bring you my message. I am no good at conversations and the mail is too slow, so I am emailing you. I think I will be best understood this way.
I don’t know where to start, but first I want to thank you for the kindness, generosity, and attention you’ve shown me over the past 2 months. This has been a very special time, and I have enjoyed getting to know you and experiencing the pleasure of your company.
It would be selfish of me to pretend that we do not have a few differences. I have been honest with you in answering all questions, but some facts remain unsaid.
Several times over the course of getting to know you, you’ve mentioned in your outlook for the future that one goal you’d like to reach is to get married. For the purpose of total honesty, I cannot continue to refrain from telling you that personally, I currently have no future interest in becoming married and/or living with someone. You deserve to have what you want in life, and I do not want you to waste your time pursuing me if that is something important to you.
If what I have just told you ends it for you, then I will quietly step away and thank you with great appreciation for the wonderful memories. If you still wish to continue with seeing each other, making love, etc., I will be quite thrilled. Really, we can only take things one day at a time and see how it goes.
The notes you send me & the gifts are lovely. However, I am increasingly uncomfortable accepting gifts and your (very thoughtful and elegant) love letters. To me, things have moved too fast and have taken too serious of a tone. I hope you do not feel like I am rejecting you, because I’m not. I just cannot keep up with this pace. It scares me. Nothing like this has ever happened to me before, so I don’t know what to do.
On one hand I am amazed and flattered by the effort and emotion you put into these things, but on the other hand I am totally confused. I hope you are not offended by this question, but do you think you are serious when you write that you love me? I just can’t help but wonder if you’d say these things to any woman that came along, because you have been lonely for awhile. Please think about whether you are really in love, or just wanting a feeling to hang onto and that I just happen to be in your reach.
Whatever conclusion you may come to, please remember that I adore you and I greatly appreciate the comfort and relief of the physical contact you give me. I have made all these important points with a heavy heart hoping that I do not in any way cause you unhappiness.
I look forward to seeing you again, if you wish, and the chats we have. If this news is all total devastation to you, some consolation is that I can at least return to you a couple of your gifts which I have left unopened in the event of this not working out, so you can get your money back. I guess at some point I realized I’d better find out which way this is going to go, before really truly being able to accept your generosity.
So, I hope that I have stressed enough how much I appreciate you, cherish your kindness and what might even be a special bond starting to develop. Only time will tell. My offer to you is your opportunity to step away, no harm done, if my harsh reality has struck too hard. Or, maybe, you will be relived knowing you do not need to do all those grand gestures anymore. I know you will think about this thoroughly, and I will be thinking of you with a great amount of care and concern as you decide what is best for you.
2006-09-18
09:31:22
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