I'm a recovering alcoholic suffering from hopeless depression that I'm certain will only lead me back to a drink. Faith in god is the only thing that has kept me sober for the short time that I have been, but I have yet to experience even a minute of happiness.
I've decided that I want to end this pain forever, as I have no hope for a happy future. I have prayed and pettioned god to put just one single human being in my life, if for no other reason than to just sit next to me for a little while, but god has not seen me worthy enough to do this for.
I am going to wait until saturday, which will be the one year annivesary of the day my ex-girlfriend left, which is also her sober anniversary.
IF god loves me do you think he will put another person in my life between now and saturday so that I don't have to hang myself?
I'm 45, bankrupt, cannot afford any type of medical care whatsoever, and I am placing this circumstance in the hands of god.
Why does god want me so lonely
2006-07-28
00:32:04
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