I grew up normal, or so I thought.
I had my fantasies just like any other kid. In elementary school I'd play tag with the girls and pass notes and whisper secrets and such.
I've always loved girls for how they made me feel when they were around me. But at the same time, I was shy. I would sit quietly and watch all the "cool" boys, the jerks, do whatever they wanted to the girls. And no matter how disrespectful the action, the girl would always just giggle away, like it was some kind of joke.
Not only did I hate the boy for what he had done, but then I wouldn't even like the girl anymore, for how she just let that happen.
Now I'm confused. I've never really been the kind of guy to jump at a girl like a dog lunges for a steak. I'm shy as hell, but atleast I'm respectful, and I feel like I can do so much more for a girl.
I want to love someone. But getting sexual with them makes me feel like I'm defiling them. How can I ever come to terms with my own sexuality?
2007-04-25
08:31:30
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swoosh
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