I was sexually abused as a child, and a violent rape was my first sexual experience. I did not report the rape, and my parents didn't report the sexual abuse, so it was never resolved. Instead, I made up a "normal" sexual history that did not include rape as a coping mechanism for myself. When I met my current boyfriend, I shared with him the imaginary history in order to feel "normal" rather than dirty. Early in the course of my boyfriend's and my relationship, I was raped again. I kept this rape a secret, too, and unwittingly gave my bf Chlamydia. I confessed that I had been raped twice at that point, but did not tell him that the "normal" aspects of my sexual history were lies. This was three years ago. He acted like he had forgiven me, and we continued our relationship. Recently, however, I got pregnant. When I got pregnant, he said that I could either abort the baby or he would leave me. He said that he had only remained with me because I was emotionally fragile.
2007-02-02
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