I have three issues to address.
The first is that I have always been unwilling to ask for things that I want or need. I was ten before I could order in restaurants and even now, at 15, I prefer to not have to talk to the waiter.
It is becoming an issue now because I really need new clothes (everything is from when I was 12 and 13, it's too small to possibly work and I feel like a dumbass in everything I have) but I feel spoiled getting new clothes. As a matter of principle, I'm giving my clothes to Goodwill, but it's the new stuff that's the problem. Also, I haven't really worn a lot of what I own because I hate it but was pressured in to getting it.
I'm already expensive...my food, education and allowance are way too high, and I need Concerta which adds up too.
The problem isn't the clothes, really, it's the underlying insecurity. If I do anything I like, I feel terribly guilty and depressed, and that I have to make up for it somehow.
I also have an issue with paranoia.
2007-07-20
16:42:31
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