I've told this story a couple of times, in other questions, but I'm going to do so again.
I grew up in a Southern Baptist family. I was taught that, if I didn't believe in the Christian god, there was something wrong with me. I was told that all I had to do was pray for Jesus to enter my heart, and I would believe, and be saved from hell, which I was terrified of. I was told I'd feel whole, happy, wonderful. So when I was about 7, I prayed for Jesus to enter my heart and fill me with belief. I felt nothing. I prayed and prayed, and nothing ever happened. I was so scared, I thought God was rejecting me. I thought I was doomed. For years, I didn't tell anyone how I could not feel the love of God, could not bring myself to believe.
I'm an Agnostic now, and quite happy, but I could have been a lifelong believer. Christians say that their god wants all of us to believe. So why didn't your god enter the heart of a sincere little girl who wanted nothing more than to be his?
2007-08-13
08:38:55
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