At the age of 5 or 6, I was sexually molested by 2 of my older cousins. They were in their mid to late teens. I told my mother about it at the time and she told me I should be ashamed of myself, it was my own fault and I should never tell anyone. Now as an adult, the reaction from my mother at that time, has caused me to have severe depression, lack of self worth and anger! I should also mention, I have worked as an adult model, escort, starred in XXX movies and I am a swinger. I have never been able to have a real relationship for more than 2 yrs. I have 2 children by 2 separate fathers. When I try to talk with my mom about the incidents 30+ yrs ago, she says there isn't anyway I was molested, as if I was I would be afraid of men, instead of (as she stated) looking to be molested.
I explained its quite the contrary; People who has been molested become molesters ( I haven't or even thought about it) and exactly what I have become. Please help, this is destroying my family!
2007-08-05
17:57:44
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