I've smoked on and off for a while, but hadn't been smoking for a good length of time, and then I started again a couple of weeks ago. Mainly because I've been hanging out with a new friend who smokes often. I'm just starting to feel incredibly guilty about this, and it's keeping me up. My parents are very conservative and against smoking (I don't live at home, I'm in my 20s and live on my own in another city) and many of my family members are Mormon. Basically, I just feel like I'm a horrible person and I don't think I feel guilty enough. When I smoke, it's like it's not a big deal, but I should know that given my upbringing it is a big deal and I'm doing something that would shock my family if they found out. I'm just really embarassed and ashamed, and really don't want them to find out. I was taught in church that I should have friends that help me be my best self, so I've been disobeying that as well. Why can't I find some devout moral people who I'd enjoy being around?
2007-06-06
22:10:53
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