someone who i once hoped to spend the rest of my life with, i can now only hope to spend all of my death with. i have so many thoughts going through my head right now. i'm sitting here wanting to tell him i'm sorry and thinking of all the things i should say to him and writing him letters but then i realize he will never get the letters and never hear my words. i wish somehow i could know that his spirit was here with me, seeing my tears, my depression, my questions, my letters and everything. but now i feel as though im being selfish, why am i thinking of my loss and depression when i should be thinking of everything he has lost out on and his depression he had to make him kill himself? is it selfish of me to cry over my missing him and over my guilt instead of crying over all that he could have had out of life or all that he was going through before he died?
2006-07-25
20:33:13
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BCBGirl
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