She was a Sagittarius and I'm an aries
when I met my girlfriend now ex she was 19 and I was 24
first 3 years were great, we clicked like no other, I would make her laugh just by looking at her or touching her.... I could make her laugh so hard that she couldn't stop
I always loved her with all my heart, give her all the respect, kindness, kisses, and all the good stuff...I'm a hopeless romantic and a gentleman to the girls I like, respect and love
after 3 years I went into business of my own which is doing well but it keeps me away from home 7-10 sometimes 14 days at a time
but when I get back I can take as much time off as I desire 1-2 weeks no problem ..its not uncommon for me to be off 3months or more out of a year if you put it together
she works full time and goes to college 4 times a week so its not like she is lonely when I'm gone
I was so happy with her I didn't even look at other girls
but during the 4th year she started to be distant,not call or return call, always had different plans when i got back home and I didn't think nothing of it because I trusted her and she promised me she would never cheat on me because by doing that she would disrespect her self
besides she had her group of friends and I had mine....that was never an issue...actually we liked it like that
than one night she breaks up with me while we were in a bar with all of our friends hers and mine...it was a shock to me because it came from nowhere and it hit me like a sledge hammer and it drove me to tears and i sobbed like a little child in a BAR where all these people were looking at me! I didn't care, i could not control it. She comes back the same night with big tears, at first i didn't want to talk to her but she cried so much my heart couldn't take it and I gave in and took her back just so she would stop crying besides I did not want to split up....after that she promised if there ever is an issue she would come and talk to me
I'm very understanding and easy to compromise with, she promised she would never lie or push me away like that again
one year later same thing started to happen but worse, she would push me physically away when I was trying to snuggle up with her in bed, not call for a week, not call back at all, change plans 3-4 times a day so I finally confronted her and asked if everything is ok because I feel that something is wrong
she says that everything is fine and that she is sorry for pushing me away in bed but she was sleeping.
I asked her few more times during next few weeks and same story all over
than I finally couldn't take it anymore and made her tell me ( over the phone) what is going on
at teat time she asked for two weeks to figure out what she wants......fine I gave here that
two weeks past and I was ready to end this if she couldn't be honest again
so she calls me and her only excuse was that she was 19 when we met and now she is 24
just like that its over....she ruined the whole image I had of her and the trust is gone...
all of that happen 6 months ago and ever since than i not my self. I did not talk to her once, just txt for her bday, thks giving and xmass...she responded to these but not to the new years txt
it was quiet for 4 months and than she txt me for my bday......i did not respond to it....ive shed many tears, got mad, sad, betrayed, used unappreciated and everything else....
I did everything i could to forget about her...buried my self with work, got back into shape, but still can get her out of my head....i collected all of the vday and bday cards she ever gave me and dropped it off in front of her door....I even started to write a long letter to her but when it was finished i burned it....
how come i cant let go of this....every time i think of her my eyes get wet and I hardly ever cry
i;ve been with different women since than, but i cant get into it and I feel like I'm detached, no matter how good the woman is....my sex drive is nowhere near what it used to bee and when i do get woman in bed and get her naked i loose interest like THAT, poof and its gone
2007-04-27
10:52:59
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