Ok, I heard rumors that Aaliyah was pregnant for Damon Dash upon her death. I feel puzzled because the news nor the autopsy never mentioned this. Were fans just making this up or was this true? I believe that fans were making this up because she wouldn't have been able to dance like that in her Rock the Boat video. & how could celebrities' deep personal business be spread like this? I read on an IMDB forum of Aaliyah that someone said that Damon was a huge freak & never liked to use condoms.
I also heard rumors about Aaliyah being with R. Kelly & lying, saying she was 18 & married him. It was published in Vibe Magazine. But she, herself, said in an interview that none of that was true. I read in Sister2Sister magazine about her being interviewed as a teen by Jamie Foster Brown, & Jamie asked her if it was true that R. Kelly got her pregnant twice. Aaliyah just laughed it off & said that she just lets those rumors go in one ear & out the other. She's pretty strong! & why was her last name still HAUGHTON & not KELLY? Where are the babies? But I feel so confused. I hope he didn't molest poor LiLi. He molested those other teenaged girls & lied his way out of it, & one of the teenaged girls asked Aaliyah to fend for her as a witness in court, & Aaliyah didn't wanna be a part of that.
I also read on another forum-this CAN'T be true!-that Aaliyah's uncle supposedly prostituted her to R. Kelly & molested her too, as well as R. Kelly, when she was 12 yrs. old in order to get her album out & promote herself in the music business. If this REALLY happened, then Barry Hankerson is SICK! But I strongly doubt that this happened. This is some DEEP ****! But Aaliyah's parents & brother were VERY overprotective of her, & she had a close bond with them, & she always respected them.
I know that no one is a perfect angel, but I can't see Aaliyah doing these bad things. She was very humble & quiet & she excelled in school & her career. It's a shame that her image & her sales went down because of jealous people & HATE! If this R. Kelly business wouldn't have happened, then I think she would've been a bigger artist than Alicia Keys & Beyonce. But how is R. Kelly getting all this honor & respect & get to be rewarded with being called the KING of R&B? He doesn't deserve that title! & almost all his songs are about taking somebody's woman or some freaky stuff. He calls himself King of R&B in the song I'mma Flirt (Remix) with T-Pain & T.I. & he LOVES to sing about disrespecting women-like that song Gigolo with Nick Cannon. Look how many Grammys & awards this ****** got!
Aaliyah's songs speak on inspiring one to not give up on certain aspects on life, whether it be relationships, career goals, academics-whatever! She had a lot of respect in her music. Very clean-especially when Missy & Tim produced it. Her music should be MULTI platinum-selling, & she should be one of those artists to win Oscars & 12 Grammys & everything. I feel like she didn't get the honor & respect that she deserved.
***One thing that's been bothering me since her death was that I have Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, & because of my OCD, I have unwanted, intrusive thoughts about bad stuff that I wish I can get out of my mind, but I can't-even with the medicine. When I heard about R. Kelly & them teenaged girls, that triggered me off to have unwanted sex thoughts about (I know this seems crazy but...) Aaliyah having sex with & suffering a horrible, sick, & painful pregnancy by the person who I'm upset with. Crazy thing is-even if it's another female. Very sick thoughts. That's why OCD is a mental illness. I SURELY don't want to think these thoughts. I've been battling these unwanted thoughts EVERY day, but I quickly learned to block these thoughts out of my head & replace her with a silly character I made up to have sex with the person I hate or am upset with. I can't get rid of the thoughts completely, & these thoughts aren't my fault. This illness isn't my fault. My whole family has various mental illnesses, & it's caused by chemical imbalance in the brain. & what made things worse is that I suffered 2 strokes at age 5. That was quite too young for strokes, don't you think? I hope there's a medicine that blocks out these bad thoughts COMPLETELY. & when I get angry, I have unwanted thoughts of hurting somebody seriously, but I'm glad my impulses never took control of me. Don't worry. I'm seeking counseling & psychiatry & taking medicine. I hope to grow out of this. But if it weren't for R. Kelly & his pedophilia, I wouldn't be having these unwanted thoughts.
What advice can you give me on my unwanted thoughts? It's not that easy for me to just focus on something else. & I don't wanna think these demonic thoughts. That's why they're UNWANTED. BTW-I'm 100% heterosexual, so don't go thinking I'm gay & crazy & misinterpreting what I'm saying. Mental illness doesn NOT make you crazy & should NOT be taken lightly. I also suffer depression, Tourette's Syndrome, & Generalized Anxiety Disorder. These disorders are as serious as diabetes & heart attacks & EXTREME depression can be harmful & dangerous.
2007-08-19
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