Hello,
I have been having some weird dreams and feelings going on for the past couple of years. I have no idea if I am nuts or what please help me!!!!
Where to begin? Well this guy and me dated on and off throughout grade school up until we were about 19.We were more than just boyfriend and girlfriend he was my bestfriend. When we were about sixteen his older brother was killed in a car accident, and from that day on his whole personality changed. About a week after his brother’s funeral he told me he was just going to kill himself. I told him to quit being stupid, but I really was worried that he even would think of saying that to me. From then on our relationship just went down hill. One week we were together the next week we were not. Finally we both moved on and began dating other people. We both had some hard feelings towards each other, so we just quit speaking. He got badly involved into drugs, and ended up having a baby with his this woman. I ran into him one day and he invited me to come over his house to catch up on old times. I agreed to when we hung out, and it was a little awkward, but after a while it was like old times again. We talked about everything my boyfriend his son. He seemed to be acting weird to me. It began to get late, so I decided to go home before my boyfriend began worrying about me. When I got up to leave he kept begging me to stay, he said he would cook me breakfast. I told him I had to go; before I left he said, “I am sorry”. I asked him for what he said everything. I told him there are no hard feelings and we can still be friends. One night I kept getting hang up phone calls. The next day I found out he had hung himself. The weird thing was I was shocked ,but at the same time I was not.
I did not attend his funeral. I don’t know why I just did not want to remember him being in a casket. I wanted to just remember him being alive. Since then over two years ago I have dreams about him at least three days a week. They are so real it scares me. They are just dreams of me and him being together. They are different though every time.Once I one of them was me and him living together with his baby. It is like we have a relationship in my sleep. I have a boyfriend, which I have dated for the last five years, so it is not like I am lonely.
Now I am not a believer in ghosts or anything. I guess I am one of them I have to see it to believe it. As crazy as this sounds sometimes I feel a strong sense that something is watching me. I get this real weary feeling. It seems to happen more when I am in my car though. It is like someone else is in it with me.I have never seen anything though.
I do not know if I am imagining things or what. It has just been going on for to long.He has been dead for two years.Why am I still having these dreams?
2007-11-02
02:34:02
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