Long story short- left first love at 19 because we were too young and family did not like him. For the past 18 years been trying to convince myself that I don't have feelings for him. Now, married with children, I accidentally find him since we now live in same state, and I realize I am still in love with him. I offer to have an affair, he acts flatters but declines as he is married with children. I am usually quite proud and can move on easily, but I have been in a tailspin for the past month over this. I think about him all the time and have never felt like this before. Its an effort to keep myself together, I am crying in the shower. Is this because my pride is hurt that he turned me down (which would be very Leo of me), or is it because I never let myself grieve this love and now I am, or am I really still in love and need to get over it? He is a Gemini.
2006-11-06
14:01:56
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