do i have a serious mental issue?

Question

im very active and love sports and have an aptitude for it, but i didn't play much sports and didn't play competitive ones because i was guilty and lacked confidence
when im gulty, i can't even eat properly and since there's less salivas
im talented in everything than most people, but guilt is what holds me back
now everything i do is infected by myself being conscious and thinking that i won't be able to do good if im feeling like this
do you think this would have affected my 1st year university grades?
i played piano for years but i was really stressed when i had this feeling
even when i was a conversation with someone, i suddenly get really conscious and think about what im feeling guilty about at that time and have a freezing point or something to that extend
i want to show what i've got and excel in everything, but this gets me really stressed

now im onto the unintentional blasphemous thoughts and sayings that i might have done, but im done with this because it was unintentional and im now worried about the fact that i might have said the blasphemy out loud intentionally to make it worse so i won't be guilty about it when i say it in my mind
this was a few years ago and i suddenly recalled this when i was about to write a midterm and it grew more and im really stressed about it now
i know that im a really great person at heartand don't deserve this at all, but i don't know why this is happening
i would just like to think about this thing stuff as a unique present from the devil just for me, but i don't know if that's a reasonable guess or not

sometimes i get really happy and feel that i can do anything better than anyone else, but if i can't let some points of reason to be convincing to myself to not feel guilty anymore, i become extremely depressed

Answer 1

You have a serious enough problem that you need to see a psychiatrist and be examined. You need to see a psychiatrist rather than a psychologist because a psychiatrist is a medical doctor as well as someone trained to diagnose and treat psychological problems.

If you need to see a psychologist as well, your psychiatrist can refer you to one. Some mental/emotional problems are caused or made worse by medical problems with your physical body. If this is the first time that you seek help for mental/emotional problems, you also need a thorough medical examination as well as a psychiatric exam.

Again, yes, you have a serious problem and need to get help for it so that it doesn't interfere with your life.

Answer 2

I'm not sure I'd call it a mental issue.
It sounds as if you are an anxious and self conscious person who may be taking on feelings of false guilt.
In other words, you seem to do quite a bit of internal worrying, and you sound rather perfectionist, expecting excellence of yourself.

You would do well to work with a Counselor/Therapist for a while. The Counselor would assist you by coaching you as you look at a number of areas and expectations in you life. You would have the opportunity to get some good feedback as to what is reasonable and what is not, what is reality and what is exaggerated thought or conclusions on your part. Likely you would have some specific reading homework along with self-evaluation.

If guilt is an issue, speak with a school Chaplain or a Minister, as that is their business specialty. They can genuinely assist you in understanding what guilt is and what it is not, and what to do about it so that you can live guilt-free in your future.

Answer 3

You mentioned quite a few different examples, but the one underlying theme that existed was that of anxiety. You seemed to feel anxious in all of those situations. Specifically, I would wonder if you have obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) because you worry about blasphemous thoughts (the obsessive part of the disorder)...if you do things to try and "relieve" the stress those thoughts bring on (like counting, praying, etc) then I would definitely say OCD. I'll include some info for you on the subject. Good luck and hope this helps.