i think about this all the time and when i do, i lose confidence in everything?

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i've been ok for a few days but im guilty again
a few years ago, i said f**king or part of the f word and MIGHT have said jesus right after in my mind, can't remember well though
what IF i said f**king jesus out loud? is this bad?
i also had sexual thought about jesus and god
i've been ok, but i started to think about this again
today, i recalled that i tried to say it whenever my mouth was open like eating and it felt like i was saying it just in my head when i was eating
there're certain things that my brain won't let go of and it distinguishes and i feel depressed for guilt then on, such as this case
is this chemical imbalance?
could there be anyone saying the whole thing out loud with intention and not being guilty at all?
because i did it unintentionally and still i feel that im the only one who might have said this
should i pray for forgiveness
so whenever i start to feel guilty, should i slap myself?
i really don't understand why i have these kind of problems whe
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i really don't understand why i have these kind of problems when people have problems about debt, divorce and cancer
even though i sound crazy, sometimes this is really important because i can rule my life away
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should i ask for forgiveness, but i don't want to because it was unintentional
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i make points of lists to assure that i don't have to be guilty, but i try to not do that because it will get me in deeper and deeper and finally unable to climb back out
i need to have a reason why i don't need to pray to be able to do anything properly or else i'll be always guilty of it
so should i forget about it all in a bunch?
does my christmas sound fascinating enough, it sure does, is this another mental problem to conquer?
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i don't have time to see anyone and it's too expensive and i don't want to share it with anyone except if i don't have to see them in person
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is praying a compulsion that i don't have to do in this case?
obviously this is a compulsion and i think about it all the time, SO SHOULD I FORGET ABOUT IT WHENEVER I THINK ABOUT IT WELL I THINK ABOUT IT ALMOST ALL THE TIME BUT SHOULD I TELL MYSELF TO GET OUT OF THE HOLE?
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i love sports and i have a aptitude for it, but i never played that much in high school since i had this kind of problem but not the same one
i think about it all the time, so it's really hard to concentrate on anything
now im stressed because i started to enjoy raquet ball and it feels like this is going to be taken away from me next
do i sound like a guy or a girl?

now im stressed out about the fact that i might have said f**king jesus out loud intentionally to make it worse so i wouldn't worry about it anymore?
this isn't considered as intentional towards jesus, right?

Answer 1

You have obcessive-compulsuive-disorder. No questions asked. There are medications and treatment available for this disorder. Speak to your family doctor and he can make a referral to a psychiatrist, who than can diagnose you.
You sound like a Girl.

Answer 2

God forgives. You are loved. Do you think that everyone is perfect? No. But God's love is there for everyone anyway.

Don't pray for forgiveness, unless you are led to do so. Pray for strength, pray for help, for guidance, and for protection. Pray for God's angels to protect you from frustration and worry, and ask that they stay with you always.

I suggest that you see your doctor or a counselor of some sort, found thru your doctor's office, your school, or a community health center, or the department of social and health services in your area. Tell them what you wrote here... or print it off. I suspect you may be dealing with a bit of depression and some Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. It is treatable, not a sin, chemical in origin, and it's okay. You can get help to fix it.

Your concerns about the bad words and Jesus' name together shows that you are a good person with good intentions. Words are words. Your subconscious is playing tricks on you, and you don't need to worry about this all. You must get a medical evaluation, though, and get some help to get your racing thoughts and general distress under control.

Also, praying is okay. You don't have to make the prayer a verbal one. You can silently pray, or to get it under control until you get medical help, pray and carry the prayer with you in your pocket in the form of a lovely stone or other nice item. You can put your hand into your pocket and touch the stone and know that the prayer is there for God to see... and to remind yourself that the prayer has already been prayed.

You can also have an ongoing prayer with your guardian angel or Jesus himself... just quick little silent thoughts.... you don't need to pray endlessly.

Know that your saviour is with you, and also that you must see a doctor soon.

Best wishes, and great blessings to you!

Answer 3

every morning, look in the mirrior and give yourself a compliment like"man my hair is amazing!" and you can repete some. make the most of life because you only get one! =]

Answer 4

apologize to God, get some meds and got to church. Your concion should be cured