Depression?

Question

People say I write really depressing stuff about death and all.They say I have issues.I haven't the nerve to confront my parents about this because we have enough problems.I'm only 12 and I don't know what to do.I'm lost and confused.Can any one help me?

I don't like talking to school counselors,I'd like a professional.Or I could talk to a friend,but they wouldn't care because I don't really have any close friends......please help

I'll give you an exaple of what I write and how I feel.:I am runing like the wind .The chilling coldness of the wind thrust upon me .I get scared and I run faster .I know the end is coming near, but it is not the end I fear so.So I stop running to face it;to end it.I feel it’s claws ripping my throat open and I feel blood pouring down from my neck,but it does not hurt.As I take my final breath for sure I fall to the ground.But it’s not over yet.I know I’m not breathing but I feel so alive.I feel my body rising up and I look down to see myself and another strange creature.But it’s not a monster I see,but just a scared creature of great height and weight.Then,I begin to feel the painstaking throb all in my body and I have to look away.I do so hurt but I don’t scream out,there’s no reason to.No one can hear me.My thoughts echo in my head forever repeating until I turn my head back to see.I look into the creature’s eyes and I see nothing but Love,Lies,Pain,and Fear.And it reminds me of how

how I was.Still am,in fact.So scared of the world,what awaits me,and what I’ll become.I feel so lonely at times and just feel like letting go,running away never to return.And it is happening.Well,not really happening but happened because I’m already dead;at least it seems like it.

I often find myself crying at times because part of my familt is already do counsiling and we're moving more apart by the second.I try so hard to be happy but it seems so impossible.

Answer 1

Your not alone, there are lots of young girls and boys that go through this type of feelings in life. It happened to me when i was around 13/14, I never wanted to go out or be around people. It felt as though i didn't even exist, looking through the eyes of someone else. Stick with your feelings now cos they will pass, just keep strong and tough. Take care and try to have a good Christmas. J ;-(x)

Answer 2

Well, don't worry about what people say. Does it bother YOU? I don't think it's good to focus on the rightness or wrongness of behaviors. Only if they're helpful or not helpful. So if thinking about death seems to be helpful to you keep doing it. If it seems to be bringing you down then maybe find some way to stop doing it.
Ask yourself what you get out of it. How do you feel when you think about and write about this stuff? Maybe it's an expression of anger or fear. Perhaps the pain in your life comes through in a visual, symbolic form. Maybe it's a form of meditation for you. Maybe you're getting in touch with your own mortality at a young age. Hard to say. But only you can really answer these questions.

Answer 3

You are going through a lot of changes, I think you should talk to your Parents ,you are feeling overwhelmed at the moment. I think you are discovering that life is not always easy.You sound to me a very grown up person who is figuring things out.Life and death go hand in hand and are the two major certainties in life.Meanwhile try and help your Parents .Is there another member of the family you could speak to.This cloud will disappear soon.You are moving to a new stage in your life and time will help.

Answer 4

Depression comes out in different ways, for me it comes out in irritation and I am currently on 2 medications for it because my mom doesn't like me the way i am naturally. If your parents are kinda jumpy about it and its only in your writing then I would keep it to myself but go and talk to someone about it like a friend, it'll keep you sane. Some people just write depressing because its there style like other people write funny or anime...don't let what they say affect you or you'll be more depressed

Answer 5

Exercise, it releases endorphins that can help make you happier. talk to friends, if you don't have any friends, try to make some by joining in some after school activities. Surround yourself with happy people......If this doesn't help, go to a counselor at school and talk to that person about your issues. See what they have to say.

Answer 6

dont feel alone. alot of people go thru this in their lives. your not weird or crazy its just a phaze that your going thru. try to fight it by taking walks and thinking your problems through. or hang out with good friends and try to enjoy yourself more and be positive. when ever you feel down and out...think hard to find out what it is exactly thats stressing you out. and when you find it....throw it away...and just take little steps on making the situation better. Your young you have your whole life ahead of you so think about that when your feeling down. I know with depression you can feel down for no reason at all...but remember that you have loving God, parents, and your friends to help you whenever you need. Take care lil one.

Answer 7

same here but i wouldn't feel comfortable talking to a 12 year old. but people say i write really depressing things about death that's because i think about it all the time and i write it into poetry. but at the same time it's kinda cool to me.

Answer 8

Your school should have a counselor. You are able to talk to that counselor privately and without them notifiying your parents. Its a good way to discuss things and have someone who is a professional to confide in.

Answer 9

well your only 12 a lot of teens and pre-teens go through that
mabye its your hormones there changing and you feel really depressed.. iv been through that and so have other ppl ..like now iv been feeling really emotional and pissie pants .but my mom or sister say its my hormones ...maybe thats why a lot of teens go through the im emo stage ....i dont like to talk to any one about my problems only like one person...idk

Answer 10

I dont think so there is going celebration for death,too
give time to life, not death.
btw..
technically death do not exist.