do I have bad karma?

Question

My whole life has been a giant (27 year) streak of bad luck it seems. It would take forever to type all of the ridiculous crap that has happened to me but basically I've been robbed, beaten, abused, lied to, cheated on, stabbed in the back, etc, non-stop. I'm not saying that stuff doesn't happen to other ppl, what I'm trying to say is that it's ALL that happens to me. There's no good to balance it out. I could write a novel just on the two serious live-in relationships I've been in alone. Both guys turned out to be pathalogical liars (I didn't find out who they truly were till AFTER I left them, and I lived w/ one for SEVEN YEARS). They both had serious mental issues (which of course they hid VERY well in the beginning). Both bf's were abusive, both stole tons of my belongings when I finally did leave them. Aside from that, 99.9% of the ppl in my life that I thought were friends ended up being two faced, back stabbing, liars just using me for one thing or another.

Both guys cheated on me, which I truly didn't find out about until after each relationship ended. One would not allow me back in the house to get ALL of my belongings (everything I acquired in 26 years) and then finally threw some of them outside of the house. I've had to basically start all over and buy a lot of new stuff. One abused me so bad that he stole my car keys so that I couldn't escape. My father was an alcoholic and abusive throughout my entire childhood. My mother very obviously favored my sister and she was spoiled rotten where as I had to work since I was 12 to buy my stuff. I've met a lot of guys that ended up being players and liars and/or just COMPLETELY NUTS. I also have a crazy ex landlord suing me after SHE locked me out of my house and broke all sorts of laws (now there's no doubt I'll win in court but just the ridiculousness of having to get a lawyer and deal with this for months, which also put off my plan of getting into the fbi)...

I've had guys that stand me up in the middle of nowhere in the middle of the night. I've met so many truly crazy ppl. And I'm not just talking about the guys I've dated, I'm talking just non-stop. The person I thought was my best friend just stopped talking to me suddenly when I was going thru the worst stage in my entire life. He didn't even call to see if I was ok (when he knew what I was going thru). And we were friends for like 6 yrs. I haven't heard from him in over a year, with no explaination. On top of this crap (and to prove it's not just the ppl I'm finding), I've had my car broken into and house broken into and been robbed numerous times (in different states and good neighborhoods). I've gotten to the point where I avoid ppl like the plague. I don't leave the house except for work, I don't talk to ppl except for co-workers when I have to. yesterday I went for a walk w/ my dog and we got attacked by a pitbull. I mean it will NOT STOP!

oh, and also, forgot to mention, my ex (the 7 yr one), his new gf has been stalking me for over 10 months. I've never even spoken to this girl (except the 2nd time she threatened me, and said "you need help and I hope you get it". She managed to figure out where I live, my phone number, my relatives phone numbers, the following bf's phone number, my work number (when NOBODY knew where I worked) and called/texted threats to me everywhere. Also, the police have never helped me w/ anything. not w/ this stalker, not when my landlord locked me out (btw, rent was paid up and everything, i was just trying to move out and my ex was staying and the lease was expired), not when my car got broken into, not when i was abused by my dad, not when my ex wouldn't let me get my stuff out of his house, etc...

And I'm not a bad person. I've always gone out of my way to help ppl and I'm friendly to everyone. Even these ppl that have done these things to me admit that i'm "the nicest person" they've met. I love animals and have rescued them from the streets. I'm extremely honest and open about everything. I've spent so many years trying to figure out what I'm doing wrong and tried everything I can think of to stop this trend. I've even asked and begged these ppl to tell me why they do this to me, so I can stop it. They say they don't know why and that I don't deserve it (but that apparently doesn't stop them from doing it). I have honestly thought that maybe I was someone HORRIBLE in a past life or something, like hitler maybe, and I'm being punished now. I have wondered if there is some kind of evil spell over me. I'm willing to explore every avenue at this point. I can't deal with this anymore.

Answer 1

What Did You Learn ?

Answer 2

we are all being tried in the fire . It is to make you like gold in the end. you will be Judged different for all you have to put up with. you have a different life and some may say it is hard and some may be able to say you had it easy but in the end Praise God for the good and the bad because it is what his will is and why you have to endure more than some will be revealed to you at some point. Read the book of Job. You are living the life of Job and so dont loose faith in our Father he knows how you handelde it all and he may be calling for you little losts sheep. Praise Jah No woman no cry
No woman no cry
No woman no cry
No woman no cry
Cause I remember when we used to sit
In a government yard in Trenchtown
Observing the hypocrites
Mingle with the good people we meet
Good friends we have, Oh, good friends we have lost
Along the way
In this great future,
You can't forget your past
So dry your tears, I seh
No woman no cry
No woman no cry
Little darling, don't shed no tears
No woman no cry
Said I remember when we use to sit
In the government yard in Trenchtown
And then Georgie would make the fire lights
I seh, log would burnin' through the nights
Then we would cook cornmeal porridge
Of which i'll share with you
My feet is my only carriage
And so i've got to push on thru,
Oh, while i'm gone
Everything 's gonna be alright
Everything 's gonna be alright
No woman no cry
No woman no cry
I seh little darlin'
Don't shed no tears
No woman no cry.


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Answer 3

It may not be that you have "bad Karma" rather that you are a poor judge of people, or that you often put yourself into situations that aren't good for you through lack of thinking through. Two abusive, mentally challenged, lying boyfriends, and bad friends - back stabbing, two faced - around you, perhaps what you are doing is bringing these people into your life because YOU don't believe you deserve better.
Take some time out from others and see how you can make yourself believe that there is better out there for you, and how you can bring that into your life. Don't accept bad people into your life, just not to be alone. Don't allow yourself be used, or abused. Get some help to break the cycle.

Answer 4

People suck. Fortunately, the Lord blessed me with a sure fire BS sensor. I know who is what in the first 1/2 hr of meeting them. And can smell a rat a mile away. There is no such thing as Karma. You are either blessed or you're not. No such thing as luck either. What you have to figure out is - what are you doing that is not pleasing to the Lord? Figure that out, and change, everything will turn around. My trainwreck life took about 2 years to straighten out. Not by me but by Jesus. Now it is smooth sailing, albeit a few Hurricanes now and again.

Answer 5

I think perhaps you do have bad karma. Work toward making good karma this time around and things should be much better for you in your next life. I knew someone just like you. Sadly he's gone now. Take care and look ahead rather than at the past. May the buddha of compassion see your suffering and help you.

Answer 6

Wow! Ok, you pick bad guys because you're stuck in the cycle of filling the void left by your dad with a guy, but the only kind of guy you know is the f'ed up ones because your dad was f'd up. You need some alone time to build up your self esteem and confidence, and fill that void with self love.

About your mom and sister, this may not be true but she may have favored your sister (even subconciously) because she sensed your strength and her vulnerability.

Answer 7

No, if you didn't do anything wrong. You're just really bad at reading people. Make sure you completely trust and know someone before living with them. If they show any signs of abusive at all RUN. You have convinced yourself that you are unlucky, and if you think that way, more and more bad things will happen to you. Volunteer somewhere and you will probably meet good people. Good luck!

Answer 8

There is something not right to keep attracting this kind of stuff. You need to analyze yourself ,right down your good points and bad on a sheet of paper,some people leave their selves open to be a victim,or they have a co-dependency problem,you need to crack this code and find out.You are not a child, cut the baggage loose, put your head up and say this is not going to happen anymore.,only you can change it.Don;'t live with men,if you are not good enough to marry don't live with them.Good wishes God Bless

Answer 9

If you really want to end that nightmare streek of bad luck say a litttle pray and ask Jesus for some help to turn things around for U. Read your Bible and Go to church to hang with people who could be good for U...

Answer 10

Karma only exists if you believe in it and I think you have to do something wrong for karma to treat you wrong. In my opinion you just make really bad choices. Living with someone abusive is stupid behavior and living with someone for seven years is a waste of time if you aren't getting married. Perhaps you should get new friends and a new place to live. Most people are a product of their environment.

Answer 11

No, you dont have bad karma, you are just a bad judge of character. You had all these signs they were messed up but you stuck around and said they hid it well.
At the first sign of trouble GET OUT!
Perhaps you are codependent. You should have that checked out.