I smoked marijuana, lots of it. parents found out. lost all trust whatsoever. i quit smoking. gained a little trust back, parents still doubtful. i make bad grades, i try as hard as i honestly can. i am not good enough for my parents. just today i broke my moms car door, on accident. she put the car in reverse and i was holding the door open and it cought the "hose-holder" and wont close anymore. i've done alot of wrong things the past month or so. i cry nightly [joke on me and i'll ******* kill you] i just want my parents to trust me again. i am now realizing how much i depend on my parents. ive thought of suicide multiple times. today being one. ive ran away a couple times [though always come back because i realize how much i love them] and no matter how much i say i hate them, i truely love them.
im crying as i write this and to be honest, i just dont know what to do. i feel like **** every day. i just want to have my parents' trust back. i love em with all my heart.
2007-11-13
14:20:44
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