How would you rate my life and how do you think I feel?

Question

Today is my B-day I am 20 years old, I am diagnois with pcos and I was trying to conceive but I lose hope because it is not working with me, I am a real pretty young lady but inside I feel real ugly, because of the pcos I have unwanted facial hair, a big belly and acne scars on my face, my life is so boring because I am embarass of the scars under my chin from shaving so I can't go out and have a fun time as I should, I am jealous because I am so different from others, I am not able to lose the weight around my stomach because of pcos, and I am not able to make a child, all around me someone is pregnant, I mean I am nearly friendless b/c I cant stand to c all of my friends pregnant at 1 time and am not, where I live in a small country not to many people knows about this diesease so I don't have anyone to talk to beside my dr.
I do have someone special in my life, but he accuses me of cheating on him every single day and its putting a hurt on me knowing he's thinking am sleeping around

I am so honest to my bf, I just need him to hear me out, he thinks every time someone hails their hailing at me, last night he accuse me of cheating because after I came out the shower I had hard breast nipples (sorry), he just don't trust me at all.
Me and my parents don't look eye so I can't talk to them in time of need, I really want to make a change in my life, I pray to God praying he'll send me a miracle but he doesn't hear my call, I try so hard to enjoy life but work 45 hours a week and nly making $180.00 isn't working out for me, like I said before today is my birthday and I haven't got a dollar yet for something to eat, believe when I say as I type tears are in my eyes because it feels like the world is on my shoulders because I cant make a child, I look like a man, my boyfriend thinks I'm cheating so I feel as if he wants to go, and I have no one to talk to about my diesease its drastic for me

I am 20 and I was trying to have a baby from 17 and nothing happen

Answer 1

Well, doesn't sound like you are very happy today.......is there anything we can do to help you or do you just need to vent and have someone sympathise?? I am not being sarcastic either. I have Pcos and if it wasnt for my big belly I would be 2 sizes smaller in clothes. I have facial hair, and my legs look like apes, lol. I found a really understanding waxer and she takes off all the hair that isn't supposed to be there. It was a bit expensive the first time because I'm a hairy girl (really not a good look, lol) but the hair is getting finer and less of it. The weight around the tum can be lost but it takes a very healthy diet and at least 45 mins of excersise to help it. With Pcos your metabolism is a bit slower than other people, so you eat the same amount of food as another woman who doesn't have Pcos and you digest it like you have eaten 8 days worth of food over the week instead of seven days worth of food. Protein shakes and meal replacements can help, but you can only replace two meals, usually breakfast and lunch and then have a healthy tea. I am saving up the money right now to do sure slim next year, by hook or by crook I am going to get back to the size I was in high school before I'm 32.

Now Hun you feel bad and it is a part of the disorder, I actually feel crappy all the time and you can also get depressed very easliy, which I suspect you may be on the way. Go and see your Doctor, you have a hormonal imbalance because of the Pcos and it can take a toll on your mental well being (I do know about this). Find a social worker and talk to them it can help lots.

You and only you can change your life around. If you want to sit and mope then you will sit and mope. If you want something more then hop to it girl. Only you can change things. You aren't so different from other women, all women have issues with their bodies, you just need to learn how to fake confidence and act like you don't care, most of it is just looking like you don't have a care in the world.

Chin up sweetie. Fix the problem, not wallow in it!!!

Answer 2

Hang in there sweetie. And Happy Birthday :-) I am sorry to hear you are having such a hard time but don't give up hope that things will get better. If you can't have children of you own just remeber that there are millions of babies and children in the world who are unwanted. Maybe you should consider giving them a loving mom and give adoption a try. And on the situation with your boyfriend, he sounds extremely insecure and controlling which is not healthy. It sounds like you are only with him because you are afraid of being alone. But please don't allow yourself to be made to feel like you are less than what you are and that is a beautiful person. You may not see that when you look in the mirror but real beauty radiates from the inside out. It comes from having a good heart. Don't give up on the things that you want to do in life because of your illness. And don't give up on living because you've given up on yourself. You would be robbing yourself of all the possibilities that are out there, and possibly a baby that needs someone to love him/her. Take care and God bless. -Cami B