what can you do if your perceived and portrayed in a way that is false and defames your character?

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that disparages you as a person? causing people to ostracize you and outcast you?

i feel this way because i have borderline personality disorder, have had an exceptionally traumatic life, ive never made any friends in life, i have a minor criminal record to going back to my late adolecence. ive made mistakes that i regret, and now i feel outcasted by the world and society....like ive been rubbished and no one wants to know me anymore.

im worried my medical notes and the mistakes have made have brandished me forever affecting other areas of my life, like employment opurtunities, if i wanted to emigrate from britain, which i deffinatly do....i feel im ruined, and hopes and dreams of building a new life, emigrating to another country have been ruined forever.
i feel people are judging me, percieving me as a loner outcast, someone to stay away from and avoid. i live alone, have no friends, have alot of rage and anger from the past, & now everybody percieves me as a freak.

how would you like to be percieved as that?
walk a mile in my shoes.

i feel my lifes never going to go anywhere, im on welfare, feel directionless, hopeless and i dont no how to accomplish my goals.

alots happened to me trauma wise, alot of abuse and now im 30 i dont think i can come back from this. ive been ruined and damaged permenantly

Answer 1

Aw, feel better. None of this is your fault but as a very wise person once told me, you have to get back on the saddle.
People are always going to think these kinds of things but the people who think this are probably worse than you. Who judges someone when they don't know their circumstances? Not anyone would you should ever be bothered with. And if you do move then it will probably be good for you and I'm sure someone will ignore your criminal record and give you a second chance. Maybe even going back to do some study might be helpful for you, maybe night school or something like that.
But just don't think that all people are judging you that way because it's probably not true but you have to prove them otherwise anyway. Get out there, start a hobby and give people a chance.
Give your life a chance. =)

Answer 2

There's a great book called "I Hate You, Don't Leave Me" which migh offer you some support and comfort since you've had that diagnosis. You might also look for a therapist that is well trained in Borderline Personalities and their traits. DBT is a great treatment format for the Borderline client and there are great successes in using it! Labels feel lousey, and its easy to get caught up in the idea that we "are" what we are labeled. But the truth is that human beings are complex and have multiple layers of truths. Your behaviors in the world have earned you the label of "Borderline", but "who" you are is not a title or label....Good luck!