When I'm alone, I talk to myself. I pretend people are there and I talk to them about anything random. I pretend they are my friends from school or someone I want to meet. I am fully aware they aren't there. No hallucinations for me. They don't answer back, I answer for them. Anyway, I would act things out as if there was another person there. I pretend I'm someone else, usually someone who was raped or beaten as a child. Seven years later and I still do this, except now it's more of a habit and I tend to do it as soon as I'm alone. Before, I would only do it when I was bored or sad.
I'm scaring myself because I'm starting to believe this 'pseudo-reality' is more real than I intended it to be. I'm starting to want to become the people I pretend to be. No matter how many people I surround myself with, I would still rather be someone that isn't there.
I was at a concert with my mom and I thought to myself, "Wow! I can't wait to tell so-and-so about tonight!" except I don't know them.
2007-09-22
14:02:48
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