I have a strange obsession...is this normal?...?

Question

I'm 13 and I've been getting these really weird obsessions with blood and death...its's starting to scare me now, but I'm always getting angry at people and wishing they were dead. I've thought a lot about cutting myself and the thought of people I hate dieing almost makes me laugh...Please, don't be rude about this, I just really need some help here! Is it normal or am I going mad!?

Answer 1

It sounds like you may have OCD. I had this condition as a teenager, and I experienced similar compulsions at your age. I did not wish for people to die, but I always thought about the possibility that family members would die and leave me. I think it's normal for teens to fixate on these matters because you are reaching adulthood, but it sounds as if this obsession is claiming you.

As for thinking about enemies dying, I'm sure that you wouldn't laugh if they were truly dead. Everyone has said at least once, "I wish I could kill (insert person's name here)." Your laughter is just an exaggeration of this response. I am sure that you don't actually want these people to die; you just want them out of your life. If they have mistreated you, pain might cause you to feel more malicious than you normally would. Please try to minimize your interactions with them as much as possible, and this may alleviate the feelings.

I can also relate to your temptation to cut. When I was younger, I used to be tempted to cut and to crash my car so I could die and escape obsessive thoughts. Fortunately, sometimes the fantasy might provide enough relief for you not to do these things. OCD's compulsive thoughts come in cycles, so I can assure you that this phase, as frightening as it is, will pass. Until then, try to distract yourself and think about something else. You might try reading or getting light exercise. In additon, telling a trusted, nonjudgmental friend may give you enough release that you will lose the urge to do these things.

I will also give the usual reccomendation for therapy, but I managed to recover from my OCD without it. Your brain chemistry, like the rest of your body, is changing at this age, and it will probably even out as you reach late adolescence.

Answer 2

Sounds like you are getting a rush playing with your 'dark' thoughts. If it gets in the way of your normal activities and interaction with people though, then it may be time to think about talking to a therapist. It's not so good you wishing people were dead. I don't think you would like it if someone was wishing that for you. Again, if it is becoming an obsession, then maybe you need to talk to someone about it.

Answer 3

See a professional counselor. The focus on laughing at seeing people you hate die is not so bizarre. Lots of people think of it from time to time. There's a good chance you don't like something about yourself. Maybe somebody planted that idea in you. But see a therapist--school psychologist, community mental health, etc. And don't be afraid of telling him/her your feelings. Counselors/therapists have heard everything. What might seem wild and outrageous to you is something most counselors have heard many times. You are not alone. Good luck.

Answer 4

There is more to this story than you are telling us. There are unresolved mental issues in you past or currently. I sense that you are very frustrated. It would be wise to deal with these obsessions you are having to help insure that you don't hurt yourself of others. You may not care about other's feelings but you face incarceration if you hurt another person, which you certainly don't want. Speak with a licensed psychologist about these thoughts. You may have some characteristics or borderline or anti-social personality.

Let me also say that it is normal to have violent thoughts from time to time, especially with all the images we get from the media.

Answer 5

Sounds familiar. I as a young adult had some of the same feelings. I consulted with a person I trusted (in my case a preacher who ran the youth center in my small town). Even though he wasn`t the denomination I was I still trusted him. And he wasn`t unfamiliar with my lifestyle (rebellious and out of control). After discussing my feelings we went to a counselor friend of his who got to the root of my problem. I felt rejected by my parents because of their long hours working. So,I did what the counselor told me to do confront my parents about the way I felt about it. Wasn`t a total solution. But,they did spend more time with me. Ever situation is different. But,one thing for sure if you don`t work at it will probablly not get better.

Answer 6

It's normal to have very strong, disturbing thoughts and feelings during early adolescence, but if you start acting on your thoughts and feelings (such as actually cutting yourself), then you've got to see a counselor. It helps to work this stuff out now before it becomes too big of a problem down the road.

Answer 7

When I was your age I felt I less than mattered to anyone so I hated many and wished them dead. Not that I would act on any of my thoughts. So I guess out of anger that is normal to wish but not act on the death thoughts. Personal mutilation was never in my thoughts. I have a past with suicidal tendencies but self mutilation and cutting never appealed to me. Most people that cut themselves for the purpose of suicide don't do it right in the first place and end up living with nasty looking scars and tons of therapy.

Sum up... its normal to believe you hate people to the wishing them harm. Acting on it is not.

Answer 8

it isn't very normal that your thinking these things but i know sometimes we cant help thinking what were thinking, so just think about other ways of dealing with your anger.like drawing listening to music or even ignoring the people/settling your issues with that person. as for the cutting yourself part, you should probably see a counselor or figure out what it is that's making you want to do this and just remind yourself that life is a beautiful thing that you don't want to miss out on!

Answer 9

NO IT IS NOT NORMAL AT ALL..do not let ur mind play games with u..take control over that or else it will control u. u can become all emo and gothic..u will start to cut urself if ur depressed and stuff like that..its not a good thing...everytime u think of that just forget it and think of better stuff..

Answer 10

You need help....This is not normal to wish others dead!!Talk to someone about this before its 2 late.