what can you do if you feel things are working against you constantly, purposefully to?

Question

its almost like things are working against me and the powers that be want me to rot on welfare benifits the rest of my life.

i was just awarded my second welfare claim, but theyve denied me psychtherapy and discharged me saying ' due to the delay in you returning your questionaire you have consequently lost your place in the assesment for psychotherapy process and we have discharged you back to your referer. '

it seems like life for along times has been working against me.
i have had a traumatic life and survived alot since 15.
i have bpd to and iam now 30.
i am so depressed because i feel stuck/trapped and it feels like ill never go anywhere in life.
all i want to do is work on my bpd, overcome it then emigrate from britain to build a new life elsewhere.
but it feels like things are working against me and ill be stuck here on welfare forever in my one bedroom apartment.
iam so depressed about this.
i really want to emigrate & build a new life & get over things.

this is my top goal,
i want to overcome and build a new life, i was born in france so id like to go back, or move further away.

but i feel kept down, like im being kept here, in these circumstances. i feel trapped. im worried time will run out on me...because im 30 now.
i urgently want to get out of these circumstances but iam scared im trapped here.
can anyone relate or advise?

Answer 1

you know, there is something happening here that is more important than either of us or anyone else; see i just realized that the tendancy to sabotage our selves and the inability to act on something that we know is in our best interests is a big big part of what bipolar and post traumatic stress disorder is all about. we have to do something and i don't know just what yet. maybe if we start a campaign against beauracratic policies (like sending you back to your "referer" who i would assume is someone that you met through the welfare system) and stay anonymous , try not to sound like we are MENTAL or emotionally distraught, then we can get some calls and letters out to the governments in our respective countries. it really couldn't hurt to at least make a stand and fight for our rights... though i don't know what the civil laws are there, here we have the right to "life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness"- those very words are in the US constitution and i believe that should be upheld. unfortunatly, we may not get through in any major way but at least we will have tried, and stated our piece for the record. i tell you what, i have nothing to do today so i am going to talk to someone in the county here about your case. i will let you know if i have any information...

until then remember these things:
1. don't believe anyone who tells you that you can"t
2. don't listen to anyone who won't
3. do believe that you have the right to strive towards what you want
4. speak your piece!!!

peace!!!

Answer 2

I totally feel where your coming from. You already know the basics of me, so you know where I'm coming from. They're fighting against me and trying to take my job away and I've been there since 1999. Even my doctors are trying to get me on permanent disability. But to save whats left of my sanity, I have to keep fighting them on this. Eventually they will win, only because the evidence of being a "risk" in my job stands pretty tall and high, but I'm going to fight and I'll probably self destruct but I normally do that anyways. Thing is is that I'm a chronically suicidal person and that is and will be how my life will end but until then I'm going to fight those who are fighting me. I also think you really need to pack up and get the hell out of where ever you are now cause it's just not working for you. And if they won't get you therapy and that's what you need, you need to help yourself and leave, it'll be the best for you in more than one way.. Good Luck

Answer 3

I would first of all, have your physician or another evaluate your medication profile for it seems to me that you are clinically depressed. As an RN and a human being I have felt the same way in recent times in my life. I would find a support group and especially a hobby or a job to keep your mind occupied. Perhaps start a small needful business to occupy your time and even generate an income. Start small and simple then progress from there for example dog walking or helping neighbors etc. Best of luck and keep your chin up. The world is in turmoil and if you feel like you are in a rut all things are indeed relative. Look to religion if that suits you. and by all MEANS APPEAL THEIR DECISION.+-

Answer 4

Can't you appeal this? I would not go to them for help anymore, you are just a number, and a process to them..nothing more, and a paycheck for someone that is what they think...very few of them really do care, and the ones that do...never stay around...maybe you should find a good church, as a last resort and see how that fares..you might be really surprized, to find that it has and always has been the answer.