I'm suicidal! help me.?

Question

my life sucks, i cut myself, and im suicidal. i know that life is a wonderful thing,but to me life is just a living hell. i believe in god, and i pray daily.I always pray for god to help me,but so far this week it doesn't seem like things are getting better. i really do feel like ending my life right now. i have nothing worth living for, well except my family,but at times they just make matters worse.can anyone help me out? you know helpful tips. i used to be a happy person, always smiling, cracking jokes. but since i hit high school i've been hating every single day of my life. help?

Answer 1

Oh honey.. I remember those days. Days when cutting was an addiction, overdosing was an even bigger addiction, and I couldn't find a reason to say alive. Now that I look back on it, I was so selfish and stupid. I see all the crap I put my mother through.. worrying about losing her baby. I remember the times she would cry when she didn't think I was listening. I remember when she saw me bleeding and bandaged me up.. like it was yesterday. And at the time, I hated her. I wished she would just leave me alone. I hated all the nagging, cut checks, made sure I was eating.. I thought she was overreacting. I was SO wrong!!!

I know very well just how hard it is to see the bright side of life. But you know what? You have to FORCE yourself to stay strong. You have to force yourself to hold on. Because one day, it will all click in your head and you'll look back on it the same way I do. Remember, NO ONE CAN HELP YOU BUT YOURSELF. YOU HAVE TO WANT TO GET BETTER. No half-assed attempts at recovery, you have to go all the way. You have to fight it with all your willpower.

I've seen several psychologists and none of them could help me. They were temporary fixes, lasting maybe a couple weeks, but in the long run, they didn't do much for me. They were just an outlet to vent my anger, nothing more.

It was my best friend/boyfriend who saved me. I had just taken all the pills I had in the house and was crying uncontrollably on the floor for nearly an hour. I felt so helpless, so lost, and so weak. He stood there and yelled at me to get up. I thought he was just being mean and didn't care, but he did. Eventually I gave in and stood up, exhausted. My knees were too weak to walk, but once I got up, he helped me to my bed and just hugged me. This was my first step to recovery- learning to help myself.

I passed out not long after, but when I came to, he was there with me. He told me why he did it, and that he hated seeing me throw my life away like that. It was affecting everything, my health, my relationships, even my ability to think. I was a wreck.

The following days were hard, but I pressed on. It took me months, but I finally made it. And today, I'm living life for all it has to offer. Even through all of the hard times, I'm still holding my head high. Because I SURVIVED and that made me so much stronger. Now nothing can get me down.

Now for you.. let's start at the beginning. You have to want to get better. You have to really want it.. more than anything else. And you've got a good start. You're looking for help. You've admitted you have a problem. That's the first step.

Let's step back and think for a minute. They say life is full of tests. Ever think this is a test? Something that's there to make you stronger? I'm not Christian, but I do believe in a higher power and that you're never dealt anything you can't handle. Instead of praying for god to take it all away, try asking for strength to get through these hard times. Remember, this is your battle to fight, and no one can fix it but you. Keep pushing, keep fighting. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Always. You just have to find it.

Try getting involved in something healthy and productive. I know that when you're depressed and have no self esteem, trying new things can be very scary. But you have to make yourself do it. Don't back out. Try a new sport, join a club, do something. Anything to keep you from moping around the house and thinking about how much life sucks. Life is only what you make of it, and if you make it suck by doing nothing, it will suck. Period. It's a downward spiral from there. YOU CONTROL YOUR OWN THOUGHTS AND EMOTIONS. If you don't, they will control you and ruin your life, as they are now. You have to make yourself think positively, and it becomes easier the more you do it.

Eventually you will branch out to other things and start having fun. Little by little you will advance in the right direction. Just keep busy and keep a positive attitude. If someone else is bringing you down, don't have it. You want to be around people who are upbeat and keep you happy. Don't waste time on the stupid highschool drama, you're so much better than that. Have fun, laughter is infectious.

I'm leaving a link to my website so you know where to find me. If you need someone to talk to, don't hesitate to leave a comment or whatever with your email and I'll get back to you as soon as I can. Life is precious, please don't throw it away.

Answer 2

There are so many things in life you’re going to miss out on if you do. I totally understand, but don't. Calm down and think it through. Think about all the people you'll be hurting. Killing yourself won't do anything to help it you will miss out on life. You matter to everybody and you were put on the earth for a reason. Death is not meant for you to pick when. You have a reason to be here just like everyone else and you are very important. Talk to someone you trust.
If you feel suicidal, please call the suicide hotline immediately.
1-800-273-8255
or
1-800-784-2433
http://suicidehotlines.com/national.html

Answer 3

OK, first of all, killing yourself isn't the solution. Life is precious, people fight to stay alive even one more second; throwing that away is a waste.

You're exactly the sort of person we need MORE of in this world, we can't spare even one. We all need you here, so stick around.

I won't tell you to go to therapy if you aren't interested. You have to meet a therapist half way or it doesn't help.

Instead of trying to control your life by cutting and deciding that pain is ok if you do it yourself, learn to control your MIND. Controlling your body is easy, it's a cheap way out and it doesn't help in the long run.

Meditate, learn self hypnosis, learn astral projection and lucid dreaming. Turn your brain from an enemy into your best friend. There's a million ways to do it, and they are all worth it.

Find Jesus, find Buddha. Become a scientologist for crying out loud, but don't just be another wasted bright girl who kills herself.

E-mail me some time, I'll do my best to help you get through all this. I'm pretty good at it after 20 years of talking people into giving life one more shot.

There's a self help book I usually suggest too. THE POWER OF POSITIVE THINKING by Norman Vincent Peale. It's a classic on how to stop worrying about things and start really living. Any library will have copies.

And watch this, it always cheers me up.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BTzNLhxPzjo

Answer 4

It sounds like you are under a serious depression. Unfortunately, killing yourself will not help you in any way. Do you knows what waits for you in the next life? It may be worse than your situation now... murdering yourself would be pointless.

You can exchange these feelings for happiness, however. Happiness does exist; you must have experienced at some point. If you miss that feeling, tell the family that you love your cutting and suicidal behavior. They will be able to get you help AND happiness. :-)

Answer 5

sir...I can only tell you from experience the awful devastating wreckage that is left behind when a family member committs suicide.

my first and immediate advice would be to seek help. Whether it is the 1-800 cited, or just going to the the local emergency room... professional councilling is a must.

Second, keep in contact with people who are willing to listen to you, and as important, who are willing to pray with you. notice, I didn't say "for" you, but "with" you.... friend, a lot of us are here just for that... we want to pray with those who ask us to pray. And trust me, I will be praying, because I've seen the pain that's been left behind, and I''ll never forget the many long talks I had with my brother.... and how I wish I would have had more opportunities. I will be praying for God to give you just one more ounce of courage, to be able to hold on and see that He does love you, and has not abandoned you.

Traveling Prayer Warrior

Answer 6

Kia do your self a favor and call a suicide hotline they can help you. Or check your self into a mental hospital. Life is worth leaving and I am sure if you end your own life, whats on the other side will be much worse. You sound like you need someone to talk to, talk to your parents or sibling maybe they can help. Its hard for us out here in internet land to be of any real help to you.

Answer 7

I do all the above, if you believe in God and pray do you really think he'll be ok with your suicide? And you said that your family is worth living for so if you love them and they love you spend more time with them. If your concerned about hurting your family, and it seems that you are it tells me that you have a good relationship with them don't take that for granted, not all of us have that....Good Luck, and talk to a professional too they'll help and if you're in danger now of hurting yourself go to your hospital NOW..

Answer 8

You are in an age where a lot is coming at you....lots of changes that can be overwhelming. If sounds like you have had some bad experiences which is making life difficult. It would be good for you to talk to someone and I see several have left numbers for you to call. Please do that. I want to tell you how loved and important you are to God. He loves you with a love that lasts forever. (Jer.31:3) He sent His Son to die for you so that you could be in heaven with Him. (John 3:16) and if you believe in Him and give Him your heart you are then a child of the King. (John 1:12) God wants to help you and to be your friend. He wants you to talk to Him about everything that bothers you. He is right there waiting to help you. (Jer.29:11-13) I will pray that He will wrap His arms of love around you and bring you peace and happiness. Please email me if you need to talk.


† On-call Prayer Warrior †

Answer 9

OK i used to be suicidal too i know the feeling things do get better but soon as they seem to get good something comes and makes all of the good things disappear it seems like i try ed pretending I'm happy at school hanging out with friends and getting involved in thing like clubs and i kept my self busy be for i knew it i wasn't pretending to be happy anymore i really was. just try to keep busy take up a hobby and hang out with some friends.

Answer 10

Hey, i'm sorry i don't think i have the answer to your question... but if it helps i totally know how you feel!!! i'm a christian and pray everyday for God to help, but then again, i don't want help because i have depression which mean i like to be in pain and to suffer. i have been in hospital afew times because i've taken overdoses, i've tried to strangle myself, tried to jump infront of cars and i have scars literally alover my body because i've attacked it with some form blade!
I have suicide thoughts all the time. i'm made to have counseling from when i was in hospital and it just jack all, to me, life is one big cry out for help, but no one ever hears me. All i wanna do is die, thoughts of death suffocate my mind!
So sorry i couldn't give you an answer but i hope you now know that there are other people out there like you...