is this paranoia?

Question

im 30 years old, have had a very traumatic life and have been treated badly and victimized by alot of people. i now have borderline personality disorder, anger/rage problems, ptsd, high anxiety and panic, social phobia, bad mood swings, very low self esteem..im presentley in a que for therapy.
however...
for along time now ive had the feeling people are talking about me, treating me different, socially ostracizing me, preventing me from having a life and achieving things, preventing me from meeting a loving partner i choose, the girl i want, preventing me from getting and achieving employment, preventing me from emigrating from the uk, which is what id seriously like to do, to canada.......all these desires i would like ive never fullfilled in my life, ive never had a girlfriend or made any friends, because of what ive been through & disorder....and worst of all i think people high up, in society, organised gangs, the media, the government are causing me to be ostracized and are

preventing me from achieving my dreams and ambitions in life...like moving to austrailia or canada and are causing people to dislike me, demonize me and keep away from me...
thinking about this makes me feel incredabally angry. however my psychiatrist when i asked him about this, told me it wasnt paranoia, but more a deep distrust of people because of what ive been through in life...but im worried because i do feel somethings happening where im being treated different and possibally ostracized

Answer 1

wow

you sound like you have been through a lot. I have some of the same thoughts;

perhaps talk to a good friend or see a doctor about a prescription.

I'm always here to talk to also

Answer 2

Hi Coop:

Well, It sounds to me that it is paranoia. I hope you are up for therapy soon, I know that will help you. In the mean time, try to be aware what you are thinking is happening (talking about you and preventing you from doing all the things you long for so deeply and passionately) is not happening in reality. I can honestly say this because I have the same paranoia feelings but they are not true.

I think that having extreme low self esteem is a big contributing factor in this aspect because you already have little to no self esteem and that in itself I believe can trigger the paranoia episodes.

They are hard to get thru I know but try to be aware of what triggers the episode how you feel but also then you can somewhat talk yourself down almost like talking yourself down from a panic attack.

You may have already been to these sites, but maybe visit them again if you have to see if there is new information there on Paranoia and the skills and tehniques that may help to ease the tension a little.

http://www.hoptechno.com/paranoia.htm

http://www.minddisorders.com/Ob-Ps/Paranoia.html

http://www.min-ucc.org/signs.htm

I hope these do help you to feel even if just a little better.

Remember you ALWAYS have your friends. We are always here for you and will listen and well be a friend.

Be safe and be well
j xx

Answer 3

Well, maybe not paranoia. More like just blaming the world for stuff. People with Narcissistic Personality and Borderline Personality Disorder tend to do stuff like this. At one point in your life you really were a victim. And as an adult, because you still have much unresolved anger, you keep re-creating your victim-hood in your present world because you're hoping for resolution. People may be ostracizing you, but because of your behavior, not because they see you as being fundamentally different from any other human walking the planet. They don't know you. They can't see into you. All they see is what you do.
It's good you're going into therapy. And it's really good you see yourself as sick. That means there's a lot of hope for you. Many people with these disorders can never see themselves as sick or needing any help, and they are impossible to work with in therapy and don't recover. Lots of luck to you!

Answer 4

A lot of Mental Health Faculties have special Borderline treatment programs that can also help you deal with some of the issues that your are having. Sometimes there is a stigma involved with having the diagnosis of Borderline personality personality disorder and often clients with Borderline personality disorder often have anger and rage problems, ptsd, anxiety,panic, mood swings, self esteem problems and the feeling that others are out to get them which are many of the issues that you stated you had. Check out http://www.nami.org/ it may have links to places in your area also there may be a NAMI person in your area that may know of a Borderline personality disorder help group in your area

Answer 5

Paranoia is defined as "a disturbed thought process characterized by excessive anxiety or fear, often to the point of irrationality and delusion"
Your description sounds like you think people are holding you back from living your life. That would we categorized as "excessive fear" which, yes, is paranoia. All I can tell you is to find a good therapist, and don't even feel bad about it. That is one of the biggest reasons people don't see a psychologist or some other type of therapist because they think it is weird to talk to somebody. Just remember, nobody is better than you.

"For every dark night, there is a brighter day..."

Answer 6

Yes..u r paranoid and you are not alone...Lots of people feel this way but do want to admit it...the way to get over it is to get involved and avoid the feelings of paranoia cause if your right or wrong nobody is ever going to truly constantly agree with your thoughts and feelings so does that mean you should feel like someone does not like you cuz they don't agree with your beliefs?

Here is a quote: Just for twenty-four hours, try it -total acceptance whatsoever happens. Someone insults you, accept it; don't react and see what happens.

You are awesome....who cares

Answer 7

Yes, it is paranoia. A member of my close family has paranoid personality disorder so I've had some experience of this. You need to hang in there and hopefully you won't have to wait for too long to get the therapy you mention.

Answer 8

Yes - you are paranoid. However, you seem to still be a point where you can verbalise your thoughts and feelings which suggests you are not too far down the line. You do need to talk more to your psychiatrist OR...give up on the wacky baccy for a while, see what difference that makes?

Answer 9

This is absolutely paranoia. Paranoia is classified as you are always thinking people are out to get you. And it can lead to underachievement in life, fear of doing daily things and activities, and for you to stop doing things you used to like. So to me, it sounds like you may have a case. I'm no psychologist, but i would sure see one.

Answer 10

it sounds like you really need to talk to someone about this.why dont you quit your job and move on thats what i did and it was the best decision i have ever made.dont let a job hold you back you can always find another job