OMG teen in DANGER!!!!!!!!!!?

Question

last night i started cutting myself but i didnt cut myself so deep that i bledd just before i bleed is where i cut the pain made me feel better but now i cant stop it is addicting i need help i cant talk to counsler at school cuz im homeschooled and i cant go to my parents please help i completly lost control

also it is hard to trust people . i have a few friends and i dont want to loose them. umm i cut my self so many times today its not good but i cant stop myself :( many family issues at home but i cant say cuz if my mom or dad found out about this theyd kill me im so scared i dont want to cut anymore :(

omg lilly that is so good did u write that holly crap :( im so scared now i cant stop im tying but i cant please please help me please :'(

I dont believe in god anymore. :(

Answer 1

WARNING;;
Before you make that first cut, remember--
You will find the blood and pain release addictive.
Even though you think you can make a few tiny cuts that aren't deep and will heal easily--

You must stop Cutting yourself look at life with hope and positive thinking clean your pain with happiness not blood and tears there is a better day BUT YOU MUST CREATE THAT DAY ONLY YOU CAN DO THAT NO ONE ELSE, PLEASE STOP CUTTING YOURSELF, PLEASE



They will get deeper.
They will scar.
They will take sometimes months to heal.
And years for the scars to fade.
If you think you can limit the cutting to one area of your body think again.
It will spread when you run out of skin.
Be prepared to withdraw from others and live in a constant state of shame.
Even if you are the most honest person ever to live--
You will find yourself lying to the people you love.
You will jerk back from your friends when they touch you as if their hands were dipped in poison.
You will be terrified that they will feel something under the cloth of your shirt or because it just plain hurts so much to be touched.
Be prepared to get so out of control you fear your next cut because you don't know how bad it will be.
Just wait for 10 cuts to turn into 100.
Be prepared for your entire life to revolve around thinking about cutting--
Cutting and covering up cutting.
And just wait till that first time you cut "too deep."
And you freak out because the blood won't stop...
And you are gasping...
And you feel yourself shaking all over.
You are having a panic attack and you are terrified but you can`t tell anyone.
So you sit there alone...
Praying it will be okay--
Swearing you'll never let it go this far again...
But you will, and further....
Don't worry, you will learn how to take care of your cuts so that you can go deeper and deeper and avoid the ER.
And the better you get at treating your cuts,
The deeper they get.
You will lie to yourself and justify it when you find youself spending 20, 30, or 50 dollars every time you go the pharmacy.
You will feel the flutter of your heartbeat everytime you go to the counter to ring up your order.
Butterfly strips--
3 or 4 different kinds of dressings...
Betadine...
Antibiotic cream...
Medical tape...
Scar reducers...
You will tap your foot impatiently hoping the line will just move and noone will stare at you or wonder why you need all these things.
And at the same time secretly hope someone will notice--
Someone who is standing in line with an armful of the same supplies.
Someone who understands--
But of course that never happens.
Medical supplies won't be the only thing you spend all your money on.
Be prepared to buy a new wardrobe--
Longsleeve shirts in summer colors, bracelets, wristbands, boots...
The list goes on and on.
You will start looking at everyone in a different way.
Scanning their bodies for any signs of SI.
Just hoping that you might meet someone like you so you don't feel so terribly alone.
You wont even think about it,
As your eyes scan their wrists arms.
Hoping, just hoping they will be like you.
But they are not.
You will see their clean arms and feel terribly ashamed and alone.
You will start doing a lot of things alone.
You will always have to wash your laundry in private so no one sees the blood stains on your clothes and towels.
You will always be cleaning up the blood.
Scrubbing your bathroom floor.
Wiping the blood off your keyboard.
You won't be able to make it through a day without cutting.
Next thing you know you are in a public bathroom somewhere breaking open a scab with a sewing needle that you keep in your wallet for emergencies.
When you get really desperate,
Anything will be a cutting tool...
Scissors...a car key...a needle...a paperclip...even a pen.
Doesn't matter what it is if you need to cut bad enough you will find something.
Say goodbye to things you took for granted.
Like wearing shorts or sandals...pedicures...sleevele... tops.
A normal summer day at the beach or in a swimming pool will become a far off memory for you.
Get ready to itch.
Because you will itch and itch.
So much you will look like you have fleas or a skin disease.
You will become an expert on your body as you destroy it carefully.
You will dream about cutting.
You will dream about being exposed.
It will haunt you day and night and take over your life.
You will wish you never made that first cut because while you absolutely hate cutting--
At the same time you love it and can not live without

LISTEN YOU HAVE TO TALK WITH YOUR FAMILY< ONE DAY YOUR GONNA JOKE ABOUT CUTTING BUT YOU"LL NEVER KNOW WHEN YOU WILL< PLEASE LIFE IS SO MUCH BEAUTIFUL EVERYTHING WILL TURN OUT GREAT IN TIME, BE PATIENT AND DONT JOKE ABOAT CUTTING IT MAY SOUND LIKE A THREAT BUT THE WORD IS SO MUCH MORE DANGEROUSE THAN IT SOUNDS

Answer 2

You need to quit while you have the chance. Take some careful steps to try and recognize what is triggering you to cut yourself. Cutting is a serious addiction. The best way to over come addictions is to get help before it gets completely out of control. You need to be willing to accept help, and you deffinitly need to be able to accept that you have a problem. To go around doing this you need to tell someone with love and authority, which is ultimately your parents. I've been cutting for 8 years, and I regret not having the ability to seek help when I truely needed it. Now, I'm 18 (still living at home, and I am still in H.S) and my parents can't force me to get help, and though I really want it, I don't have health insurance. Plus, 8 years later, the will to cut is 100 times stronger than the will to seek professional help. What I am trying to say is that truely the only way you will be able to help yourself is by professional means. If you absolutely 110% can not tell your parents, then you should be able to go to your local mental health clinic. There they should have something called Title X. Title X is an enforced law where you can recieve counseling free of charge and they cannot tell your guardians. Although you will not be able to see the psychiatrist for a proper mental illness diagnosis, or will you be able to recieve depression medications; the counseling will be able to help you recognize your triggers and weaknesses, and help you build up your self esteem and confidance. If you cannot get to your local mental health clinic you should atleast be able to contact your local High School/Middle School conselor, and have counseling free of charge. I'm going to give you some links to self-injury support forums. Please take the time to join one or even all of them. They will help you because they are there to. Good Luck, Stay Safe. Blessed Be.

http://www.soberteensonline.com
http://www.recoveryourlife.com
http://www.virtualteen.org
http://www.self-injury.net
http://www.careplace.com

Also, there is a man that you can email. He is a motivational speaker, and he's always willing to lend hand to someone who needs it. If you need someone to talk to, someone that will listen then you need to email him. His name is Paul Dunbar, otherwise known as Fritz. You can check out his website at http://www.realkidsreallife.com. There he has crisis lines that you can call in case you are feeling suicidal. His email is [e-mail]. I'm 100% positive he will write back to you. He has helped me through alot. Good Luck, and once again STAY SAFE! If you would like to talk to me, feel free to email me. STAY SAFE!!!!

Answer 3

So if you know you are in danger, why can't you tell your mother?
You are not out of control yet, since you still understand the danger. You CAN take responsibility for wht you do, and stop. You can choose to deal with your pain in an honest, and meaningful way, and not just play games with yourself.
You seriously think siome demon whispered in your ear? Please! YOU read about this or saw it, and thought it might work. How's it workin?
What choices do you have? You think addictions fix themselves? You think cutting yourself is OK? You think your mom and dad need to know that their baby is in trouble?
This is when you need your mom the most.
This is how she finds out she is a good mother. It is easy to love a child who is cute and perky, making straight As and in ballet.
A REAL mother will love her child even when they are in jail, drunk, cutting themselves, or having sex with the janitor.
You think she doesn't really love you, that you are unworthy somehow?
You are wrong about that. She loves you. If she is even remotely normal, she loves you, and wants you to be healthy and grow up well.
Get some help from the people who love you.

Answer 4

I'm a self injurer too cutting so darn addicting if you want to chat at any time just email me at [e-mail]
I know how hard it is to stop but you have to try we can all beat this if we try there are many alternatives to try one that can work for me is holding an ice cube in your have, it hurts but does not leave a mark, Good Luck
Bex

Answer 5

I went through the same thing a few years ago. I found keeping myself distracted helped the most. Whenever i got the urge I put an ice cube under my tongue, or (the more distructful way) opened my window and just started launching things out of it. (parents didnt enjoy that one though) Usually old cd's from like the 90's. I hope you pull yourself out of this.

Answer 6

You need to go to your parents, and suggest that you need professional help.

Have your parents read a book called "Reviving Ophelia", "cutting" is one of the subjects they go over in that book.

Your parents obviously care very much for you by homeschooling you. They may not understand at first, but they will get it. Cutting is another form of release, like drugs or anorexia - it's more common than you think.

Answer 7

You need to tell someone who you can trust. I'll be here if you need to talk. There are other ways to go about letting all your frustrations out rather than cutting. I know from experience that it isn't worth it. You must have a lot going on and feel like you can't talk to someone. But if you are cutting you need to talk to someone.

Answer 8

Talk to a friend you trust. Not one that will blab your problems all over the place. Just do something else that will help you get over it. Like scream or throw something (not really good but it does help) I used to do the same thing and i just told myself its stupid and ridiculous and that i needed to stop so i just tried doing other things to help my emotional pain. You have to try to get to the bottom of whats making you feel like you have to do this. Mine was because i hated what was going on in my life. I was drinking to much so i felt lonely. Try to get to the bottom of your problem.

Answer 9

Asking for help is a good first step. Here are some free people you can talk to about it 24/7.

800-273-TALK (8255)
800-448-3000

Answer 10

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