HELP Please!!!! Suicidal thoughts?

Question

Help Please ,
I am a 30 yr old woman with Multiple Scoleosis . I am having suicidal thoughts I feel very alone , With my disease at the moment I cant walk , cant drive I cant even play with my kids , or wipe my own backside with out help , My husband left me last year when I got really sick , and my boyfriend that I was trulely in love with passed away on jan 28th 2007 I feel like I have no one to lean on I sit here alone my daughter is at her grandfathers place since I am incapable of taking care of her . I know that when one commits suicide they dont go to heaven but I dont want to feel so alone , and so helpless I dont go anywhere I dont do anything I dont have any friends , counselors just dont listen I am on meds for depression it doesnt help I dont know what to do please help me and please for my sake no rude comments please
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ty all for your comments in just want to say that I have truley talked to my doctors I have had 9 doctors with in the past 6 yrs and the one right now says to me deal with it I tell her im in pain she says deal with it , Its so Irritating when no one will listen to you and I live in not a big town and to come up with a doctor here is liking pulling teeth with out novacaine and I cant drive so it s not like I can go to a different town , I have tried with doctors nourologists , counselors , the MS society , It feels like I am just another name on there list that brings in a few dollars if it doesnt affect them then they dont care is how I feel sorry I am rambling but just had to get that out

Answer 1

Liberty.. please think about my answer, it may sound drastic, but I feel you need to do this.
Call the Police and tell them that you are tired of living and are going to commit suicde, because you have M.S. and no-one cares.
They will put you in hospital and there you will be able to talk to a phsciatrist and the other people, (who will help you once you come home again or set it up so you hopefully aren't put in this situation again.
Where's your carer right now, in al of this.
Can you talk to them as well?
Your Life is very important! And you know God Loves you.
I have cared for a special but now passed brother in law who had MS. And filled in for a carer, for a lady who had it too. When my back was ok.
I will hold you up in prayer* and may the God of Love give you His peace that supasses all human understanding.
Write me anytime if you want to.

Psalm 72:4 "HE WILL DEFEND THE AFFLICTED AMONG THE PEOPLE AND SAVE THE CHILDREN OF THE NEEDY; HE WILL CRUSH THE OPPRESSOR."

Answer 2

I am also your friend as so many who answered you.

Stress caused by events just like yours, death of a loved once or not being able to care for your daughter, double the risk of an MS exacerbation.

I volunteer taking care of our elderly but also of people with MS and I have made a lot of friends that have the disease. I attended a group that helps in rehabilitation and I have learned so much. Right now I wished I would be able to come to your house and help. I don't know in what stage your MS is but I want to share some of the experiences I have made.

Relaxation techniques have worked for many of the MS clients I got to know. Besides taking the medicine regularly, meditation has made the biggest difference in their lives. It keeps you focused on the present and allows you to stay centered. You may have to find a group that can show you how to meditate.

Clearly, how people with MS cope makes a difference in their day-to-day existence.

I witnessed that who had seen the disease as a war to win, had the hardest time and if they couldn’t beat it, they felt the failure and frustration and didn’t want to go on anymore. The best advice was, to tell yourself: “I can not win the war but let’s look at other aspects”. Such as breaking the disease down into individual challenges, either the fatigue or the spasms. Most of the clients felt that they are managing the MS much better.
The rehabilitation group I have worked with promoted physical activity such as aerobics that incorporate balance training was the most effective type. Patients with mild MS experienced improvement in fitness and function. The exercise helped people with moderate and severe MS maintain their present function. It would be great if you could find groups in your area that provide those services.
Overall, the most important thing is to keep yourself busy with connecting to other people with MS and make friends who understand exactly what you are feeling. I still communicate with the friends I've made via e-mail or sometimes with a phonecall. Just to talk, listen and keep their spirits up. Some have found a way to work for a few hours a day either outside if they still can drive or at home on the computer. I don't know if you still work, if not, maybe you can find something that you could do from home. That may help you to feel connected and keeps you busy for a while. As so many friends here on yahoo, I also offer you to contact me at [e-mail]

My thoughts are with you

Love
.

Answer 3

Your daughter needs her mom. I think you should get in touch with others that are going through the same things as you are. I also think you should contact you church about this. Get in to a bible study and fill your time with some people that will listen and pray with you. You are still around because you are needed. You can be more than you now think you can be. You just need help is seeing what you can do. Just like when your daughter couldn’t do something you helped her realize her potential. We all need help some more than others and some at particular times in their life. You need a little help here and then I am sure that once you have a direction you will take off. You have much to give. Find a good church and make some good friends and those steps will help you start in a good direction.
Blessings and you will be in my prayers

Answer 4

I am really sorry for you! I couldn't deal with that without a lot of support. You absolutely need home health.
Call your religious counselor. Rabbi~priest~ reverend~ minister~ or what ever you call Him/Her. If you do not have one call the salvation army and ask for someone to come by and council you for depression.and reduction of faith. put it in your own words.
Somewhere in your surroundings you have a State mental health facility and Adult protective Service. Contact them. As of right now if I were part of your support team I would recommend you spend a few days in the hospital getting your meds regulated and some depression counseling.
maybe you could find a chat room for disabled people...

~~~~~~~~IF ANYONE KNOWS OF ONE CAN YOU PLEASE LET HER KNOW ?~~~~~~~

Suicide is never an option. Call grampa and ask him to bring him you child for a visit.
I hope you get some help sweetie. Feel better soon . I will pray for you.

Answer 5

Hello! I'm so sorry to hear about your situation I wish I could find the right words to make you feel any better I know you feel
like nobody cares about you but you know what? you have
people who care specialy your daughter I'm pretty sure she loves you and if you commit suicide what's going to happen to her? think for a moment how is she going to feel knowing that her mother got tired of fighting and took the easy way out and did'nt care about the sadness and sorrow she left behind
we all have a purpose in life I don't know what your purpose in life is but I do know that at the end you will be rewarded
because god loves you and there is always a light at the end
of the tunnel when in desperation tell god with all your heart
to help you carry your burden and you will see that god works
in many unusual and differenr ways.like right now I'm in front of my computer tryng to help a perfect stranger did you know
that it's been almost 6 months that I don't enter this site ? and when I entered the first thing I saw was your add.
I told you that god works in many funny ways and here I'm
talking (typing) to you trying to put a smile on your face
my friend you think nobody cares about you? you are so wrong I CAREEEEEEEEE so please do'nt do anything wrong not even think about it ok? and talk to god he will listen
all the time.
next time you see your daughter give her a big hug and a big
kiss and tell her how much you love her and how proud you
are about her she is the biggest reason to continue fighting
for god bless you my friend
note. I was feeling sad all day long and you made my day (night)

Answer 6

Hi-
I can't even imagine the pain, hardship and heartbreak you are going through. I am glad that you have the Internet to ask for help. I hope you stay in contact with people this way.

On the R & S site you can put in a prayer request anytime and you will get a lot of folks praying for you. (you'll get some nut cases too, but they are there for us to reach out to as well)

So say hey guys please pray for me, for companionship, a good doctor, pain free days or just help in having hope.

God does care, and even though it is hard to understand why God allows bad stuff to happen to good people, He is sovereign.

I googled suicide help and came up with this web site:
http://www.suicide.org/
there are many others.

Keep reaching out for help, and hang in there.

Answer 7

Hi Ty,

i just want to let you know that your sharing saddens my heart and i will be praying for the Lord to help your situation. As many have shared your family really does need you and as you know the pain of losing a loved one... she is one of many reasons to keep living!

I'm sorry that your counselor is so insensitive. Feel free to email me if you need a friend to vent to (i don't know much about MS) but i do know about life and pain and how Jesus gives me purpose and a reason to live everyday.

Hang in there.

Kindly,

Nick

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Answer 8

i agree with what others have already mentioned...you DO have people that care about you! Committing suicide will end your life but the pain and sadness you start for the people that love you will just begin and last forever with them. The VT massacre hit very close to home (my best friend was very close to being killed) and I feel so sad for everyone that was hurt or killed. But way more people were affected than just those wounded or killed because everyone that cared about them was affected (their friends, families, and even people that they didn't even know were saddened by this).

Personally I think everyone at least thinks of suicide for a moment, but don't do it! It doesn't solve anything! It only creates more problems and pain. If anyone I knew did this I wouldn't know what to do.

Answer 9

Hang in there, your daughter needs you!!! Like others have said, try to get in touch with a support group for MS or just a suicide support group in general, any support group dealing with suicide will do!

I don't know what it's like to have MS and be in your situation, but I do know what it's like to want to commit suicide. Try to get into therapy, it helped me a lot. Talk to your parents too, I'm sure they can help out as well. They love you more than you know. Think of the grief you'd cause your family if you went through with it.

Hang in there, best of luck and I will also be praying for you!

Answer 10

I'm sorry you're feeling so hurt right now. I'm not sure entriely what to say. I suppose you want someone to define why you should live...and I have only one, really good, practical reason, that you can't dispute, your daughter. Depression is hard...and a lot of people have it. But, you're 30 years old, that's still so young to define you're life by a rough spot. Time heals all, but, if you chose to make that decision, you would be hurting your daughter worse of all.
I hope you find the help you need. God bless.