Sexual confusion?

Question

I just posted a question about sexual confusion. When I was young, I was molested. I blocked it out of my brain for so long and recently it has been bothering me. And I think it is my fault. Truley. When I was little, like 4 or 5, my friends told me about sex. We talked about sex, we played dolls and involved sex, and I thought sex was the most important thing ever. Then I think I was molested, but I pretty much asked for it I think. I hate thinking about it. I don't know what to do and I don't trust talking to anyone because the molester is in my family and my friends will think I'm a fag. Now, I still think about sex, but I'm a virgin. I don't trust guys, I'm intimidadted by guys, really badly. I'm scared and shy and don't know what to do. Around girls I am always outgoing. I'm sorry this is so long and stuff I just felt like asking without being completely judged. Thanks to anyone who responds.

Answer 1

Still waters hides the tuberlence underneth. Ether way its no were near your fault. The fact that its call molestation dictates that it isn't your fault. Its the age difference that creates that truth because its up to the older to raise the younger, and this is a perversion of roles. Its going to take awhile and the way society paints relationships isn't going to make it easier on you. Therapy be a nice start, since you need a darn good friend and thats there job to be a darn good friend and keep the relationship constructive and growing. If not that you'd have to learn to trust peopl enough to let them in. The road is long ahead of you and theres alot a person can say, but I can't go on to much in here. Just try and make good friendships and do what you can to relate this to them, therapy thou is your best start.... sorry I wish the world was a better place but you can't count on just jane or joe blow helping you with this..... thats why people sujest therapy, it isn't something the average user is going to be able to help you with. Another thing might be to turn to the family, but something tells me if you had that choose you wouldn't be here now....good luck with whatever you do....