Sometimes I am sick of having to live, having to work.
For those who really don't understand, let me clarify:
I was abused religiously growing up.
I was abused verbally.
I almost got raped when I am 10 by 2 black ladies.
I got a girlfriend later, found out after 4 years, it's all lies.
I got a 2cd girlfriend, who scammed me for all I had.
I got a 3rd girl, who tried to use me to support her drug habit.
So now, I have hit almost rick bottom.
I find it hard to believe in women or anyone any more.
I am depressed with life.
I hate work.
I hate living.
I hate everything.
Why should I work another day?
Wasting my life away?
All work, no play?
Don't have time to do anything else.
Got ruined by the other girls.
Who took my car, money, my life, I was saving, hoping for marriage, a happy family one day...
Why, why, why?
Living is torturous now.
Good does not exist.
Only evil is in the world.
I wish to die.
I hate myself now.
Life is boring,
hard,
impossible...
Why don't I just die?
2007-03-17 16:01:40 · 6 answers · asked by Anonymous in Family & Relationships ➔ Singles & Dating
i wish i had a bf that actually cares for me thats all i want but trust me get to know a girl dont just date em right away cuz u think shes cute.
2007-03-17 16:12:02 · answer #1 · answered by karen t 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
i'm so sry. I felt the same way when I moved from CA. No matter how much u let it sink u can't get the reality thinking that it's what u have to go through. Everyone has a reason 2 come in2 this world, and ur letting urself get this ideas 4 some stupid grls that ruined ur life.
Sometimes it feels that ur trapped inside ur own body and no matter how much u want to break free, something's holding u back. What was holding me back was the fact that I had to get used 2 living somewhere I didn't call home. What's holding u back is these experiences u went through. Don't let urself get into the idea that nothing matters 2 u in when something good is waiting 4 u at the end.
I'm sry that ur think that ur not worth living when u r. I was destroying myself by getting this ideas get inside my head, but when all I had 2 do was open my eyes and realize how much I needed to live. Don't let this happen 2 u. We've all gone through this and something good comes out of it later. Again I'm sry.
2007-03-17 23:13:35 · answer #2 · answered by ღ 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
take a vacation already !!...just take it...sounds like you need a good two weeker. go climb a mountain, adopt one of those mexican kids they show on tv that eat garbage....re-focus
take a valium...throw a weekend drunk..tell peopl to kiss your a**...hire a hooker and dry hump her, call you mother and tell her you're a bugger eater and you need help then hang up on her, Change jobs, paint a house, kick a cat...( easy there animal rights nuts.) throw red paint on some PETA people. Take a cruise. Do something new.
2007-03-17 23:23:08 · answer #3 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
Good questions....The final answer?
To keep those Ba$$T@rD$ from having the satisfaction of taking you down. I will not fall to these obstacles, I WILL TRIUMPH!! Refuse to fall, get up from your grave.
Tonight, you are someone else, someone who will not die, who won't be fooled by humanity.
Tonight, you become....Yourself, the way YOU want to be!
2007-03-17 23:21:54 · answer #4 · answered by Smallz 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
thats a pretty sweet poem .
if you really are depressed im here 4 ya
like ALL of us right guys?
2007-03-17 23:06:42 · answer #5 · answered by Sir. ChatsAlot 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
find new goals. good luck peace
2007-03-17 23:06:43 · answer #6 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋