A store is about choices.
Black is a color of protection, also the unconscious, also the unknown.
You don't say if the candle is lit or not. If lit, you seek illumination in areas of your spirit, subconcious, or life that are unknown to you, if unlit, this desire is unfullfilled.
You approach with an attitude of fear of the unknown, and worry that those things which you don't understand will overwhelm or other wise harm you.
Your conscious self, personified in the form of an angel, guide, or God, comes to "save" you.
You were placed back where you started.
If you allow your fears to rule you, you will be "safe", but you will also continually go back where you started, and make no further progress in your life. This not only refers to whatever spiritual progress you might wish to make, but also things like turning down an awesome job because you would have to move somewhere new, or not taking a chance on a new relationship based on past experiences, and not knowing how things will turn out, and things like that. You must face your fears, in order to grow.
"No guts, no glory".
Edit: I looked over some of your other questions, to get a better sense of you, and definitely will stand by this interpretation, but will also add that your sisters clearly have the entire household in a shambles, they are causing an uproar in your life, and it appears that you are overcompensating in an effort to be the "good" child, in an effort to make your parents feel better, and in an effort to get along and placate everybody. There is nothing wrong with being "good", but don't confuse being "good" or being "safe" with not doing things you want to do, and should do for your own growth. Don't allow being "good" to lead you to be anyone other than you were meant to be. I hope you understand what I am saying here. Your emotions about the way your sisters have trashed your household are taking over your life, and you are in danger of being drowned by them. No white clad being is going to swoop down and save you from this. You need to find a way to detach yourself from the situation, (emotionally) and go on with your life. And don't be so involved that you are trying to handle things that your parents need to take responsibilty to handle. You are too involved in it. I would even go so far as to suggest that maybe you can talk to your parents, and find out if you can go stay with a relative for awhile, until things are more stable, and then pull your self back together, you should not be worrying about anything but growing and getting a good education right now.
Edit # 2: Egads. I just read the part that you are one of 13 children in the household. I understand that you need to grow, and this situation is holding you back. While I can appreciate that your parents are overwhelmed trying to cope with 13 kids, and two of them acting out this way, it is not right for them to hold on to you in the way they are, in order to have the help. They really need to handle your sisters themselves. Much of your dream has to do with this, but I will stand by things I said earlier, too. Since you have a job, perhaps you could compromise by renting a room somewhere close enough, that you can help with the younger kids some (not the 2 sisters), but have some semblance of your own life, and a space to help you get detached from the situation. That is still a long way from going to the mainland for college, but it would be a place for you to start working your way out on your own, but not leaving your family hanging in the process. And yes, from the sound of things, they are going to cry, they are going to plead, and they are going to make you feel guilty for having needs of your own. (guilt is often a form of fear too, not only a regret) But you need a chance to start taking your place as an adult in the world, and fear that the family will fall apart without you will hold you back. I am not telling you to cut them out of your life, or not to help them, only to seek a little space to put your head on straight. Whatever you should decide to do, you have a hard road ahead of you, good luck.
But of course you could always chalk it up to things outside of yourself, like demons, Evil, Devil, or whatever. It would give you a good excuse not to look at your life.
2007-03-17 01:22:43
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answered by beatlefan 7
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