What do i do?

Question

Hi, I'm 18. I'll be 19 in March. I guess you could say i'm going through some serious depression and i dont know what to do. I know life wouldnt be as easy as an adult, but i look around at other people my age and they don't have it this bad. First off let me explain how i've been visiting my dad in & out of hospitals for 5 years now because hes fighting colone cancer which spread other places. Not to mention 20 million diff. hosps. It didnt hit me or ''hurt'' me about my dad till this year, now its really getting to me bc hes soo skinny & doesnt look like my dad at all. I'm an only child so its hard to see him but i do anyways. I dont know what i'll do if he passes..it's my dad! & while thats going on...i would love to just come home to a boyfriend or go to his house and hug him and kiss him and cry everything away and have someone to make me smile.

Answer 1

well then...go 'shopping'!

Answer 2

Hi nina, I am so sorry to hear about your father. I have lost my mother to a similar circumstance and feel your pain even through all of the walls between you and I. Listen, what you are going through IS HARD, you are not crazy to feel lonely or scared. I hope there is some way for you to find someone to talk to right now, someone, anyone, who will listen and who you trust, a family member, friend or councilor. You should not, and do not need to go through it alone. Having said that, I too know what it feels like to want to have some one to run to, to hold you while you cry and tell you it is all going to be OK, romantically. It seems like if you could just have that it would make it all feel better.The truth is, now is not the best time for you to start a relationship. Relationships take work, and especially in the beginning, it is hard to pour your heart out. You need to be free to yourself and your emotions right now, not consider how it will effect someone else. And even if you were to pour it out to someone in a relationship, it would be a lot of pressure for someone to take on so soon. You are obviously a strong person...just think how strong you were to seek help, even here on Answers. Find a person to talk to, a therapist, councilor, or psychiatrist, and know that loneliness is a human condition that we all feel sometimes, you are not alone. Hang in there, you are loved, whether you know it or not.