why am i protecting my family whats wrong with me i go thru bouts of being homeless and bouts of living in he11 my ma piked me up from church the other day after i hadnt seen her in while and she knew what was gonna happen when he seen me and he was there and they think im stupid they think im lieing i wish they had a security camera he was in the back seat and he hurt me so bad it still hurts towalk it hurtsto think and im covered in cuts and im covered in bruises and i dont know why i tryed to lie and protect em i dont know y i alwaise lie to protect em they think i told and the cops made me come home with her and he knows and he hurt me so much worse im so stupid and its better i took the blame but he thinks i didnt andt hat i told and it hurts andim sick of it hurting and im sick of him hurting me andim sick of them kowing and no one listens and im why the *** do i lie for them i cant take it i dont no wat to do i dont wana live thru this i cant let em do it EVER AGAIN NO MATTR WAT
2007-01-15 18:05:56 · 6 answers · asked by Anonymous in Health ➔ Mental Health
and it wont it cant i never wanna see em again and i just wanna run away or go to he11 its gotta be better than this i dont care if i go to hell id ont care if what ever happens has to be better than this i dont think anything can suck this much i have to make it stop and they dont believe me and im loseing my mind they have to make it stop and i know its my fault they dont believe me cuse i tryed to cover it but i dont care cuse no one can make it stop im spoosto make it sstop i guess id ont know what im spostto do if i cant make him stop how can anyone make him stop how can i make them love me how we used to be a family were all so good at lieing so good at lieing except i suck actually thats y they didnt belive me when i lied but theyre really good at it and thats y they can get away with it since i was a lil kid even when my teacher called and they got away even when he spends like 2 mons in jail even then and he can come back and im done trying to love i cant do it I HATE LOVE
2007-01-15 18:10:53 · update #1
May Allah have mercy on you..
You should read the Quran..it would help you understand the meaning of life
if you wana talk in person send me a mesage
Assalam O Alikum(Peace be upon you)
2007-01-15 19:33:00 · answer #1 · answered by Ali 5 · 0⤊ 2⤋
No body, no matter what they have done deserves to be treated like you have described. They are making you feel like you deserve it and you don`t. They are just trying to justify their behavior at your expense. I would not even treat a dog anywhere near what you have experienced. Sounds like they just want to take everything out on you and make you the scapegoat for all that is wrong in their life. Your brother and sister might be next if they aren`t already. Or just as worse, they will think this is normal behavior and treat their own children like this if and when they have some. He is controlling your body and mind. Love does not hurt like that. Love is gentle and kind. Love is always present, not just when the person is doing exactly what you want. A normal person gets mad at those they love sometimes sure, but the love is always present. Is a roof over your head going to help if you are dead? Sorry to say that sounds like its only a beating or two away. You are worth more than you know. Someone(me and all who have written back) may be far away, but we are thinking about you and we are out here caring and routing you on. Wish I could be of more help. I`ll be praying for you and although some might not understand, also for them cause they are really sick. You are not stupid. You seem to know right from wrong which is more than I can say for him.
2007-01-16 02:56:34 · answer #2 · answered by fly7591 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Zum,
This has been going on far too long. Call 1-800-422-4453. It is a hotline for kids like you who are abused. I know you're frightened, but you ABSOLUTELY NEED to do this, or call 911, immediately. If the police aren't responding, please try the hotline. You lie for them, honey, because you know of no other way and you are afraid of having to leave. You need to tell someone the truth, and this person needs to be an authority figure. A social worker will check out the household; they will not come in and steal you away - if you are in imminent danger, though, you may have to spend a few days away from home with people who can care for you, at least until a decision is made in regard to your safety. Please know that people truly care. If you have any questions or need help finding resources in your neighborhood, e-mail me anytime. I'm almost never on IM. This may be a long process, but it is more than worth it to save your own life. The likelihood is that your (father? stepfather?) will be ordered to undergo psychological treatment. If he does not do this, he will go to jail. The thing is, Zum, you don't sound safe there, period. You need to tell the police or the hotline everything that's happened. Your parents need to be counseled in parenting before they can ever be safe to be around. I know you love your family but your siblings are in danger as well. Parents can very easily manipulate a child to believe that it is his or her fault. I cannot stress this to you enough: this is NOT your fault, and you are not "a messup". You're a smart, wonderful kid with a lot of compassion and a lot of love in you.
This will get better, I promise you, but you need to make the phone call and stick to your story. Again the number is 1-800-422-4453. This is the National Child Abuse Hotline. A helpful website:
http://www.nationalcac.org/
Zum, please understand that there is help to be had, but you have to accept it. This is saving your own life and perhaps that of your siblings - in these situations, the abuse doesn't just stay with one person. I'm thinking of you. Again, write me anytime.
2007-01-16 02:59:58 · answer #3 · answered by Me, Thrice-Baked 5 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Zumy, My heart goes out to you I'm sorry that you have been hurt like this.I believe you don't tell because this is your family and you don't want to cause trouble for them and you may be afraid of what will happen if you tell but you can't go on like this you need to go back to the police and tell them every thing that you have said here they will help you find a new place to live. Please get help with this.
2007-01-16 02:23:13 · answer #4 · answered by Debbie O 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
I'm sorry. Email me if you need to talk in private. Nobody should go through this alone.
I have been reading your posts and I am so sorry for you. If you really want help and you really want out of there you need to email me. I will be signing off in about 10 minutes, but I will answer you tomorrow morning. I can help you, you just need to make the first move and email me!
2007-01-16 02:21:01 · answer #5 · answered by Aero Cat 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I'm sorry.
2007-01-16 02:16:07 · answer #6 · answered by Angie P. 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋