Unsatisfied after it all?!?

Question

Aside from the random, once-every-blue-moon argument I've had in school, I kind of feel left out.
I have a pack of good friends that are supportful, and generally, I am looked at as the kid who really loves to get good marks and a a "nerd" [quote-unquote] but, dude... my music taste, my idiotic actions, my wonderfully curse littered diction... really doesn't point to being a dork.

How to shed this image?
I hate being looked on as weak. I keep up my grades mostly for the rep of being smart.

All the time, I wonder if people hate me.
I know a select few do, but they're failures in school while I'm above that. Yet I bet you my left pinky I've been stupider and wilder all my life than them.

so, advice? :]

Answer 1

do you give people the time to get to know 'you' and not just the image you portray? i won't say your music taste doesn't necessarily define who you are because i tend to think sometimes it does seeing as how my entire life is music, one wouldn't picture a so called "nerd" rockin out in his bedroom to Motley Crue but it happens often. Once you are stereotyped by people you see everyday its not that hard to change what they see. You should be comfortable being yourself and portraying YOU to the rest of the world. If music is a big thing in your life then add a band t-shirt to your daily wardrobe or something. Its a great conversation starter for others who have the same taste as you ya know they'll be like oh you like them? well did you go to this show or hear this song?"
as for idiotic actions well, who doesn't have those? don't be afraid to do them in public or say what you want in front of them. if every other word out of your mouth at home is f**k well, don't change that for anybody.
Just because you are smart shouldn't mean you are weak. How do you even come to that conclusion? I know how school is and everything but you know damn well underneath the exterior of those other people they are wishing they could get good grades like you.
I wish I had better advice but I'll go along with the crowd and say be yourself but really BE YOURSELF, everyone acts like they need to put up this front for people at school when really, if you acted as goofy in the classroom as you do in your own bedroom at home how do you think people would see you? like the one who is carefree and doesnt give a **** about what people think.
Its fun to do that. I hope you try it. :]

Answer 2

You sound older than in high school. maybe you are just too mature for these kids. you will feel better once you get to college and meet more people with the same personalities.
good luck

Answer 3

I really wouldn't worry what other's think. Your opinion of yourself is the only one that matters.