i hate life?

Question

what has the world come to?......my life never seems to get good, and it will never do. im really depressed and only 16, my mother has been cruel and evil to me, i cant cry because of the mental torture she has put me thru. she has made me want to die, i drink myself stupid because of alll the stuff thats happend between her and i. i now live with my stepdad because i cant stand too look her in the eye's or be anywhere near her. when i was 3-4 years old. my real father used to beat her silly. and i seen it all. her and my real dad put me in a cupboard to sleep in. it was practically my bedroom i had no bed, on a 1 seater sofa to sleep on. they put newspaper on the floor for when i wanted to go toilet. they treated me like a dog and everything my dad did to her she blamed on me. i really dont know why. she has never told me she loves me. she will only tell me that when she is drunk. my heart is broken in pieces and i cant be happy and i hate it. i wait till the day i die.

ok im really mad now i can never make something up like this. this is my life story and it hurts me inside everytime i think about it.

Answer 1

at 16 you could just walk away and forget your family, start again.

You are a victim of Domestic Violence and should ring the helpline and they will help you. That was the way I felt but managed to drag myself back from the edge, moved into a refuge and started again from scratch. You do not have the handicap of three children relying upon you.

There were two young girls in the last refuge I was in so I know they will be able to help you as well. Ring them now and start to live again.

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Answer 2

I would suggest doing what I did when life sucked as a teen.
Make a plan to leave the house. Get really good grades in high school, find a good college or trade to get into and begin taking over your own life. You will be amazed at how much is out there beyond the house you live in or even the city for that matter.
I created a plan and realized that there is only a certain point that you can blame your parents for your life and begin taking control of yourself.
Do good in school, study something you love and start your life all over again. Also, don't take any of that stuff with you...leave it all behind as if it never existed...do not visit...do not call...do not even write.
Keep this plan in your pocket and don't even tell anyone because they will discourage you and tell you that you are stupid.
You are old enough now to open your mind and expand your circle.
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Answer 3

My mom beat me silly regularly from age 8 until I was 17. When I was then taller than her, I think she became afraid to hit me, and started being verbally abusive. When I was 16, I thought I wanted to die. But what I really wanted was to stop hurting. You can do that without dying.

It sounds like you are in pain. You need to find some peace of mind, and that might be hard to do without some help. If you feel comfortable, try talking to a school counselor or a church minister. You are strong enough to get through this tough time. I know, because I have been there. The things that happened to you are horrific, but they do not have to control you or rule your life forever. You can make a choice to find a way to move on with your life and grow, despite what has happened.

I didn't have anyone at 16 that I could talk to. I finally started getting help after my divorce when I was 28. But it's never too soon to start looking for a way to move on. It won't be easy. But it will be better than giving in to your depression and anger.

I'll be sending good thoughts your way! God bless you!

Answer 4

My heart aches for you. Maybe you can call a hot line for teens....maybe they can put you in a foster home.....if she does not want you it is not because of you, it is because of her.
My husband grew up with an abusive mom and his life was hell. He ran away from home and ended up on the streets. He finally ended up in a foster home that was better than home life. He joined the military when he turned 18 and was in for a few years. The happy ending is, now he is 38 and we have been married for 5 years on the 27th and he always tells me he never thought he would ever be happy like he is. It does get better. I will not always be bad. It is hard to see that now cuz you are in your own living hell at the moment.
My advice is get the best education that you can so you can get out as soon as you can and support yourself. The better the education the better your choices are.
Please dont give up. Talk to a teacher. Call a hotline. Dont give up.
My husband tells me all the time how lucky he is to have our two sons and that he is going to be the best dad in the world cuz he did not have that growing up. He had a sucky mom and an absent dad.
Dont give up

Answer 5

Wow, you have had more than your share of misery. That is a fact, but it's something you just can't change.
This is your past that you described here. Try to live in the NOW. Let go of the past, and think of what and how the rest of your life should be. Do you have any plan? Do you have any goal?
Try to keep busy. Imagine yourself in another life. You are only 16. Childhood is the shortest part of a human being's life. The best is yet to come! Look forward to now and your future. It will be better,honey, if you allow it to be.
My heart goes out to you, but my positive thoughts as well. You have aired your grief, now it's time to move on. Onward!

Answer 6

Well... you could just forget the past and move on. It may seem hard but when you try it is easy.
If you don't change, grow, evolve and learn to move on then really you have decided to stay trapped in that cupboard. You are who you are and not who you were. You are not your parents and you have the power to really make a difference in this world - don't throw this away. If you keep thinking about the bad times you are living in the past.

"How true Daddy's words were when he said: all children must look after their own upbringing. Parents can only give good advice or put them on the right paths, but the final forming of a person's character lies in their own hands." - Anne Frank

Think about this - we can not choose our past but we can choose our future. You could be great. I know you have it in you.

Answer 7

this is not a question. it sounds like you need proffesional help. please dear, don't do anything drastic. talk to your school counselor or a teacher or even a friend. pray, cry, do whatever to try to deal with what your going through.. dying is not something a 16 year old should be thinking about. your situation sounds ruggid, but dying will make a lot more ppl depressed than you are do you have any more family members you can stay with? call social services. there is help for you.. good luck and God Bless..

Answer 8

You deserve better, please don't give up on life,you are only young and life can have so much to offer, your Mum proberbly does love or she wouldn't say it in drink, because your Dad beat her she will have a low esteem, don't you let this happen to you,I'm sure you are a nice person and someone will love you,ever thought you could find someone to love in return there are a lot of lonely people out there all looking for thier soul mates.
Take care,tomorrow is another day,hope you finnd happiness

Answer 9

i know you may at the moment hate life but there is alot to look forward to, like getting married, maybe haveing a familly, ooh and you will get to put your parents in a nursing home and get back at them for all the crapp they gave you. seriously thats not the way to go if you are thinking about suicide. im sure youve atleast got some friends and i know for a fact that if you do take the easy way out they will be verry sad and wonder is there anything i could have done for her? if you have a steady job you could become emancipated and you would bew treated like an adult an you could get your own place and you would be able to get some frinancial help from some other people. check the site out it will be usefull to you

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Answer 10

My heart goes out to you.You sound like you have had a hard time as a child.All children deserve love.Remember that you are beautiful,and that soon you will be old enough to stand up for yourself.Phone childline for help and somebody to talk to.You should not think about dying when you are so young.Yor life can and probably will get better as you get older.I have a lot of friends who grew up in similar circumstances as you and they kept strong,as dificult as it was.They have grown up and have happy families of their own.Dont let your present situation get you down,things change.You are special.