I hate my life! ( i feel like it wouldbe better to just die)?

Question

Her pay check was in there ( she had cashed it) and so were all of her credit cards and insurance cards.Someone already started using her cards. She was going to pay the house note with that money and now its gone. Now we are probably not going to have a christmas and she already started drinking for the night so she will probably walk around drunk and depressed for the whole night.NOW she is saying that she is going to ask my stepdad to move out.She said that he isnt supportive of her ( it's true).This has happend many time befor but i seriously think it's going to happen now.She said the only reason she has been staying wither him the past few months were for financial reasons , without him she would be able to pay the bills but we sont be able to haveextra things like cable and we wont get new clothes probably once a year we would only get a couple of clothes.I know this sounds selfish but thats all i can think about.IknowIcanAlwaysGetAJobButMyMomWontLetMe.IHateMyLife.

It isnt selfish to want to die, my mother is already a funtioning alcoholic and she is Probably going to get worse after this.
My dad is already an alcoholic so great whoopie now i have two!
How much fun this is great! *rolls eyes*

My mom wont let me work she wants me to focus on school.

I hate it when ppl tell me to look to god for help.
if god is so wonderful then hy did he put me in this position and why did he put ppl in positions even worse than mine?
Does he want ppl to suffer?
Because If he was so great he wouldnt

And she said to me that "it would probably better if she just died".
"but i cant do that becuz thats just giving in"

Great she is drunk of her *** now...

Answer 1

I know you feel that you really dont matter or you make things worse for your mom or dad and i know that you feel life couldn't get any worse for you you feel like you are alone and that you have to take care of them and you proble do you stay up till their sleeping and check on them and you really don;t want your freinds around cause they embarrass you and you think youd be better of dead things will get better if you stand up for your self and get some help they are good hot lines for kids with drunk parents and well i know you feel like you want to die you get tired of hearing the crap the bills or all the crap these are things that you as a child should not have to worry about you need to be a child as long as you can and if you don't want to call some one in then you are just gonna keep dealing with it then you need to just tell htem when they are not drinking the way these makes you feel and dont hold back

Answer 2

I know how that is girl.. But things get better I promise. What if when you're 19 you meet an amazing guy who'd do anything for you. You knew what you wanted in life, and you had a plan to get there. You'd never find any of that out if you were dead. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. If you need to talk go to my profile and email me :) I'm 16 tooo.

Answer 3

Don't hate yourself because of someone else's mistakes. Just promise yourself that you'll do better and make better choices of who and what you allow in your life. I know you're angry, upset and confused and don't want to hear anything about God, but He does love you! It's unfortunate, but bad things happen to good people. I don't know why your mom is an alcoholic, but somewhere down the line she made a decision, a bad decision that has unfortunate consequences. You still have a chance to live a better life. I hope everything works out. It's not worth taking your life. Things will get better, just don't give up.

Answer 4

things will get better, have faith, hang in there. I know it is hard sometimes, but just keep looking toward the next day. If it is really bad, then there is only one way it can go right? if your at the bottom, the only way for your life to go is up. keep you chin up, God is always there and always loves you. no matter what happens, everything will turn out alright. credit cards can be reported stolen and the bank will give all the money back. You always have someone to talk to.

Good luck my friend,
Savage

Answer 5

there are millions of homeless hungry orphans who would give anything for a bite of food and only a couple of clothes, and cable.....they dont even have television let alone cable....there are far more distressing things in this world, to say you dont want to live for these reasons is extremely selfish i think, there are always choices and ways we can better our lives and our experience of life. Your life is what you make of it, only you can change it for the better, no amount of money can do that for you.!!

add :- in my experience people who talk directly about killing themselves generally don't, but are just looking for 1)an ear
2)attention
3)help with their situation
i realise this isnt true for all and may not be your situation but to me there are people here giving their advice (which is what you asked for) but you seem to always have a reason why their idea wont work. Stop thinking negatively, start thinking positively and believe you can change your own life.
P.S.....it is an extremely selfish act to want to kill yourself, what would it achieve, except make your loved ones drink even more because they felt guilt over it, death is the cheats way out, face your problems head on, theres always a solution you just have to be willing to find it.

Answer 6

Try for getting a job....that way you can help with her worries and also make both of your lives better. You can help her like she's been helping you all these years.

The jobs you can get though also depends on you age..if you are under 14 or so, you will have to settle for yard work for some people...but even still, every penny counts.

Most importantly though be there for her ^.^ a lot of times love works wonders more than any ammount of money can.

Answer 7

I don't know how old you are but please please stop thinking that dying is better. You have access to a computer and have reached out for help and that is great!!Now use it again and contact the crisis help line. kids line in your area or just keep on reaching out for help on this site....You are young and this does not last forever the having to live with drunk parents and all the crap that goes with it. They are in dire need of help but sounds like they will not get any...because everyone has to help themselves or ask for help. YOU HAVE AND I HOPE YOU CONTACT A CRISIS LINE RIGHT AWAY...they will talk to you and this is what you need. Someone closer to talk to...please do it

Thousands and thousands of kids/people are going through what you are right this second...you are not alone....remember that!!

I know you have heard this before but you must understand that life seems bad...very bad and you feel as if you will always live like this...nothing stays the same...things change all the time..life goes on!

life is what you make it!! Take it or break it. You feel like dying and I am sad for you that we have to live with people who think only of themselves and not thier children,,,you know it s not your fault you are not the one drinking your parents are. Use your computer to reach out further and get help for yourself. The first step has been taken now please continue......

Do not worry about new clothes if you have no money....I am sure you will find away to dress nice and it really is whats inside of you that counts...

Please keep reaching out the internet can and is a real tool for people in need..

Take care.......you are not alone

Answer 8

Oh you poor dear! This sounds so overwhelming! Like the old saying go's "When it rains it pours" Hang in there Sweety things will work out. This time a year depression get really bad. Things will work out .You made the first step writing to us here. There are people who care surround yourself with friends and caring family members! Don't let anyone give you a guilt trip you are entitled to your feelings, but please choose life! It doesn't seem like it right now but things will improve.

Answer 9

Don't worry about the house payment, call the mortgage company and explain to them what happened and make arrangements to pay at least something, even if it is not a lot. They won't kick you out as long as you are honest with them and work with them.

Answer 10

dont put yourself down for other peoples mistakes dear. use this as a lesson of what you should & shouldnt do in your life. like = dont just put up with a man make sure he IS the one for you. also = make sure you get the best job you can then you dont have to rely on anyone. i know its hard sometimes. but we all have our crosses to bear. just look out for yourself & make sure you are happy.