im not sure why i want to kill myself. i dont know i just dont feel loved anymore everyone tells me they do family, friends, my boss oh ya by the way im a model. ya ya they tell me im beautiful and im lucky to be so loved but i dont know i just dont. thats all i think about is just killing myself and i also have a feeling im gonna do it real soon too.i dont know how to write out how im feelings.if you guys know a place that can help me please tell me. i might not go because ill just want to kill myself even more. well ya i think im wasting time because you people might not care. thanks anyways oh ya im 15 years old it was my birthday on may
2006-09-28 14:06:19 · 15 answers · asked by ToBeautifulToDie/ToCrazyToLive 3 in Health ➔ Mental Health
ugh...i know how you feel....i used to be beautiful then i lost it.
some of my popluar friends left me and started a false rumor why i turned like this.
you feel unloved beacuse you didnt feel the feeling of REAL love
love from families...the happiness that even poor people can find..
friends that will stick weith you talk about feelings and feel sorunded mentally,and not by physical looks...
2006-09-28 14:08:16 · answer #1 · answered by Grack 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
hey ... no problem
you dont need anybody to love you but yourself
i felt the sae way
heck, i swore i would not live past 15
then 18
then.........
i had serious problems. abusive parents.poor family
didnt have cool clothes
all i wanted was love
didnt get it from home
didnt get it from schoolmates
called a dork cuz my clothes were not IN
i thought about it
long and hard
i cried many many times
but i somehow knew they all were wrong
there WAS love in me
i wasnt a dork cuz my family didnt care enough to love me
didnt care enough to dress me right
i wasnt a dork
i was a person with alot of heart and soul
many of us (like you) have so much inside of us that we just cant get it out
we cant get heard
we cant get taken seriously
you dont need to have anybody to tell you that you matter
you already know that
maybe it doesnt seem that way now
but if you look at yourself and feel the good in you , the strebgth in you, then u will endure
we are all individuals
we are all alone
but as we get through it we tend to become happier and happier and more confident as we go
i have fought with depression and thoughts of suicide more times than i can count
i have learned to cry it out of myself
i dont go through that anymore
i have a good life, alone here with my dog
i have my friends
i have you
what more could a guy want ?
the place that can help you is in your own heart
learn to love yourself
nothing anyone tells you will matter as much as what you think of yourself
learn how wonderful and special you are
live so someday you can give your love and make others happy to know and love you
cry it out
then smile and feel good that you kicked those feelings in the butt
live, love, learn
2006-09-28 21:24:14 · answer #2 · answered by John K 5 · 2⤊ 0⤋
Don't do it... I know how you feel, I have felt the same way, I grew up with arthritis, and it was hell, I often thought of ending my life in order to end the pain. I never stopped to think about the people left behind, my family and friends, and how they would feel after my departure. Than I see so many people with worse things going on, and am grateful for what I have, even though it might not make me happy, but i know that my existence makes other people happy. So please don't do it, talk to someone, anyone, but don't end such a precious life, learn to love and accept yourself just the way you are, and remember there will always be someone there to help you and love you.
Un beso,
Suerte.
2006-09-29 00:49:40 · answer #3 · answered by ☼ Latina Loca loves Yayo ☼ 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
We were made to love and be loved - but at different times in our lives it is difficult to 'feel' loved. You will get through this and the light will shine again. You will grow up and become and amazing woman, wife and mother one day. You'll be giving advice to your kids within 10-15 years. What would you say to them?
Sometimes there is something spiritual blocking us from receiving love. Be careful about what you feed your soul and spirit. You are what you eat if you know what I mean. Protect your soul for all it's worth.
2006-09-28 21:40:09 · answer #4 · answered by debzadon 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Don't do it. Get some counseling. Meds work real well. Don't give up that quick. I know how you feel but it can get better and it's not a waste of time to wait. If you do it, there's no going back. You can always wait. And you should. Happy birthday. Don't give up. Don't give up. And people do care. But you have to give people a chance to care.
2006-09-28 21:14:14 · answer #5 · answered by badotisthecat 5 · 1⤊ 0⤋
You are feeling this one maybe because you are feeling lonely. Just because you have family and friends around you, that doesn't mean you can't be lonely.
Please go see a doctor and talk with someone about it....anitdepressants could help...and if you really wanted to kill yourself I don't think you would have taken the time to write it on here. You have promise....talk to someone and be totally honest.
2006-09-28 21:18:40 · answer #6 · answered by Aimee B 2 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Don't go thru with this. Suicide is not the answer. Find one thing in your life that you really want to live for and then live for it. Listen, life comes only once for sure, dont waste it like this. You're 15 and have a whole life ahead of you- there are a lot of things to look forward to in your life. Talk to your parents, find that one best friend who is always there for you and let them help you. Find help, please. Don't fight for death, fight for life. Live life to the fullest.
2006-09-28 21:15:23 · answer #7 · answered by Bookworm 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Life gets better honey...you are 15...you are too young to know that...Things arent supposed to be this hard and they wont always be...i know that sounds like crap and it doesnt really help you at this very moment
I tried to kill myself three times when i was your age. I know what its like to feel unloved...i know what its like to walk around like you already half dead and at the sametime feeling more pain than seems humanly possible
see a counselor, therapist...call a hotline..if you are religous/ spirtual talk to someone at church, talk to someone you can trust...a friend...a teacher...whoever....
email me at gracelesscharm@yahoo.com if you want to talk somemore...i will not judge you or try to tell u what to do...sometimes it just helps to have someone to listen
Don't give up....
2006-09-29 00:15:01 · answer #8 · answered by IrishGrace 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Enjoy being 15. Models tend to eat poorly to stay thin. Hopefully you aren't starving your brain to where it's effecting your thought process. Eat right and be glad you are healthy and loved like people tell you.
2006-09-28 21:13:56 · answer #9 · answered by sweet 5 · 2⤊ 0⤋
I have a chemical imbalance in my brain. causes me to want to kill my self uncontrolablly I ended up in the state hospital they got me on meds lexapro 10mg once aday, and geodon 20 mg twice aday. I haven't wanted to kill myself in a long time but if I forget to take this meds I want to badlly
2006-09-28 21:10:45 · answer #10 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋