O.k. so I'm bi-polar, but I just want to be dead. I 've felt this way for 20 years (since I was 9). Today I bought a whole bottle of sleeping pills. I want to use them, but I kinda don't. Can someone give me a reason to live.
Oh I' m on lithobid & Cymbalta & abilify, but I haven't taken them in 4 days. The bottles I have now were picked up from the pharm. on 7/26/06 and I still have about a week left, so you see how irreguarly I take um.
2006-09-28 06:50:38 · 23 answers · asked by ee 5 in Health ➔ Mental Health
O>K. so now all of you have really made me sad that I even thought of killing my self. I just hate swallowing my pills 5 a day.
I HATE IT!
Is there a patch?
2006-09-28 07:10:00 · update #1
Maybe you need a change in your meds. You have felt suicidal since you have been 9 years old...thats a long time to feel that way. Have you spoken to your psych about it....maybe your mood could be changed simply with a change in your medication.
Why should you live? Because you dont know what is around the corner. And may I say sleeping pills may not do the trick either....you may not end up dead, you may end up in a psychiatric hospital with brain damage being dependant on your carers to feed you, to shower you, to wipe your bottom...Nope, not for me.
No one who has succeeded in killing themselves have ever come back to tell us what it was like on the other side. I did, however, read some personal stories about people who tried to kill themselves but were unsuccessful. One in particular sticks in my mind. She was rushed to the hosptial after trying to kill herself....she died on the operating table. When they revived her she said while she was dead she felt these horrible ugly creatures tearing at her flesh...it was never ending. She said the pain she was suffering was the worst pain she has ever experinced. She said she would never try to kill herself again because the experience of being dead was just too horrifying and no emotional pain she suffered in this life could even compare to the pain and suffering she experienced in the next.
A lot of people will dispute these near death experiences, but I believe them, and a lot of these experiences havent been so nice. The spirit world has neither been proven or disproven, but I dont think I would take the chance of being eternally tormented in the next life if I chose to suicide.
It has got to be the meds that are making you feel like this. Feeling suicidal for 20 years means there is something wrong with whatever messages you are getting in your brain. Go talk to your Psych....some changes I think need to be made and made quickly.
Life is great...you havent experienced that, and I dont know what else I can say to make you want to live. You are an individual with thoughts that no-one else can share....no-one knows how you are feeling...not really. Honestly, go talk to your psych.....as this is not a new feeling for you. I could give you heaps of suggestions about why you should live if it was just a circumstantial thing....but in your case its not. You need some intervention. You need to take more control, especially in taking your medication. You havent taken this medication in 4 days.....are your suicidal thoughts worse? If they are, then you need to get back on the meds. You are the master of your own destiny....you are the only one who can take control of your life.
2006-09-28 09:46:46 · answer #1 · answered by rightio 6 · 0⤊ 2⤋
Want To Be Dead
2017-01-13 07:23:29 · answer #2 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
Why not take your meds regularly? Take them for a few days and see if that helps! I have found when I get depressed if I just hang in a few more days I can get passed it. I have Cystic Fibrosis and I take tons of meds and do breathing treatments everyday. I also read my Bible which really helps a lot. I am in Bible Study Fellowship (found all over the world). Try making a list of things to be thankful for and then thank God for those things. Try doing some things for other people. Sending a card to someone who might be lonely or putting away a trash bin for a neighbor, little things can mean a lot to people. I always feel better if I can be useful to God and to people! Think how your friends or family members will be hurt if you are gone, please do not hurt them like that! It is a selfish and permanent way out.
Please get on your meds and wait!
I am praying for you!
2006-09-28 07:05:29 · answer #3 · answered by shepherd 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Reason to live... why die? Why end what has barely begun? I got myself off of the pills and only take a Xanex on occasion if I have a severe panic attack. But I did it slowly not to cause any freaky shakes from withdrawl. Get a pet, a companion, someone who will love you for you, not for what you can give. Get a hobby like photography so you can SEE life all around you. I love photographing and seeing people. I will go to a restaurant and just people watch... behavior, it's funny to watch all the teenagers trying to be cool and recognizing what we used to do. Mom's trying to drag tired kids around. Why let go of something so beautiful? Go to the lake, feed some ducks, volunteer at a homeless shelter and feed them, go to an old folks home and ask who doesn't get visited... their stories are worth hearing.
2006-09-28 07:02:16 · answer #4 · answered by Lorie S 3 · 0⤊ 1⤋
If you know you are bipolar...the you are well aware of the drastic mood swings associated with this disorder.
You need to be compliant with your medications if you expect them to help you. You need to take them as prescribed and as close to the same time each day.
If you feel the medications are not controlling your symptoms, then you need to check with your Doctor.
Since you seem to be presently experiencing the deep Depression associated with this disorder....YOU SHOULD GO IMMEDIATELY TO YOUR EMERGENCY ROOM... and ask for help.
Call a family member....call a supportive friend. There are also special HOT LINES you can call and talk with someone.
You have a Life to Live Hon......Don't sell yourself short. Wanting to end your life is not the thing to do.
Start back on your medications NOW.....don't wait another second.
Blessings of Love are yours this day.
2006-09-28 07:00:20 · answer #5 · answered by ShaamAnsu 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I really want to be dead
2016-03-23 02:38:30 · answer #6 · answered by Neelesh Neeleshrai 1 · 0⤊ 0⤋
A sea is dead once it has no water in it, which the Dead Sea does. The name "the Dead Sea" i not ttoally literal =P It is called that because its so salty that no animal can live in it, and if they tried, they'd die. But they wouldnt be that stupid to try i the first place =D Actually its so salty you can float. Its cool. =D
2016-03-18 02:23:21 · answer #7 · answered by ? 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I'm sorry you feel this way. At your age, you have a lot to live for and to look forward to. If you're not using counseling then I strongly urge you to seek it. There are people in your family whom love you and would be most devastated if they lost you, so think of them. I hope my answer helps you. Good Luck.
2006-09-28 08:49:39 · answer #8 · answered by Mike M. 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
You sound selfish to me or anyone who wants to commit suicide usually does. Even when I want to I think about who I would hurt from this if I did die. You want to disappear and usually everyone does at least once in their life. Think about your funeral and after the funeral when those who care about you most want to die right along side of you. They can't get up in the mornings and live a normal life because you took away an essential part of their being. You can't help them cope anymore because you're gone. At least now that you are alive you can have friends and family who can help you through these hard times. To me losing a loved one has been the hardest thing for me to deal with, don't do this to someone who loves you. Think about people in this world who don't even have food to eat tonight or tomorrow, people who can't afford to have shelter, is your life this bad? I think if you take your medications the way they are suggested then it might be better. Maybe you could consult a doctor to make sure they prescribed you with the right dosage. Life is worth living, you just have to try. I hope this helps you to realize that you are not alone and most like myself don't take medications for depression. Healing takes time with whatever you are trying to cope with. I will pray for you. God bless.
2006-09-28 07:13:41 · answer #9 · answered by 4me2no&u2findout 3 · 0⤊ 4⤋
I think you need to talk to somebody about your problems. Whether it be a doctor (best person to talk to in this situation), therapist, or even a family member or friend. If you want to talk to me that's fine with me. visit me on yahoo 360 at:
http://360.yahoo.com/andy.compwhiz@verizon.net
I think suicide is one of the worst decisions a person could make. :(
I totally understand what your going through. I'm bipolar too (I have bipolar 1 disorder nos) and I take 3 pills in the morning (2 are vitamins) and 2 at night...
Good Luck and Feel Better...
2006-09-30 02:45:56 · answer #10 · answered by ? 2 · 0⤊ 2⤋