Does this sound like suicide?

Question

I am a diabetic on insulin and oral medications. I am giving up on life because I am alone and the one I love doesn't love me. So I am over eating sweets. Like I ate about a pound of fudge since yesterday and I just finished a half gallon of Edy's ice cream, which I ate in about an hour. I'm getting heavier everyday and my bloodsugar is starting to escalate. I don't care anymore so like an alcoholic, I'm overdosing on sweets instead of booze. Do you think it will help me to just wipe my lousy self off the face of the earth quickly or will it be a slow death? Anyone have any clues??

First of all, I'm an adult. My parents are no longer alive. I am also a widow and just lost my husband 1 1/2 yrs. ago. Secondly, I have had my blood sugar under control and lost lots of lbs. and kept it off for around 5 months. All of my levels are excellent, in fact ultra low. No issues at all. I am already seeing professionals for my depression but none of the medications help me as I have too many side effects with them. I have to constantly change to see if something "else" will help. In the meantime, I do care for someone more than just friendship. It's my own fault as this person has committments in other areas of their life.......not married......not involved with another, just other committments to their job. I knew this when I started having feelings for them but I couldn't control the feelings. It doesn't make it any easier though. Sad, alone, unwanted, etc. that creates issues for most people, even weakness when it involves sweets and nothing to look forward to..........

I do care about myself and I am very religious and have GOD in my life. I'm just tired of losing all the battles, all the time.I took care of my husband his body was ravished by cancer. That in itself is enough to be depressed over. The feelings I developed were in itself a GOD send and helped me through most of the rough initial spots after the death of my spouse. I'm not irresponsible, nor self centered, nor have my head up my butt, it's called love and need.......end of a sad story that I figure will end if I continue on eating the way I have in the last couple of months. I'm out of control and it's due to all these issues. I'm tired and need one thing. I'm reaching out and their not there, in more ways than one. That's all I have to say about it........thnx everyone for the concern. I truly send GOD'S blessings to all of you for your compassion to me.........

Answer 1

Look. I'm not going to tell you to "get help" or "find jesus"...And I'm not trying to say I went through the exact same thing, but it was something close to it... Been there. Done that. Though I didn't do it with ice cream... Luckily enough, all my attempts failed... Give up and focus on something else, then love will happen... Sometimes you just have to ignore sh*t, however hard it may seem, and not obsess over it... F*ck all the people who turn you down.. Obviously they are too shallow if they won't even give you a chance... EVERYONE that isn't a complete shallow idiot has one reason or another to end it all... It's just that if they all did, the world would be full of nothing but little paris hilton worshiping idiots with IQs of around 20...

Answer 2

Kidney dialysis which can only be done for 3 years, and blindness are a certainty. Some of the things in the statements are not accurate. Blood sugars will not start to escalate from over consumption, they will skyrocket, go up to 500. So are you helping someone write a novel? Have several friends who are diabetic and have lost several friends with diabetes too. Don't forget leg amputation due to lack of circulation and feeling. Heart attack any second now. Diabetes is no laughing matter.

Answer 3

I wouldn't call it suicide, most certainly depression and self hatred and possibly you are suicidal, but what you're doing is not suicide. It's no more suicide than anyone else who overeats...or smokes cigarettes, or drinks to much, or takes drugs. You're waiting for someone to walk into your life and fill that lonely void in your life. Let me tell you from my own life experience, it's never going to happen. There's no one out there that is going to come into your life, love you and make it all better. Someone loving you is not going to magically make you happy. You'll surely find a way to sabotage it because you have this self fullfilling prophecy that you're not loveable. You'll continously be looking for something to prove you're right, that you are disgusting and no one will ever love you. I know, I've been there. What you need my friend is to believe you are worthy. When you truly believe that, you'll make better choices for yourself, in all areas of your life, including your health. Talk to someone as soon as possible. You ARE worth it...you just need some help realizing it. God bless you.

I just read your additionall info....The best medication, that has no side effects, is exercise. It's hard to do anything when you're not feeling good, but it is much better than any medication you can take. Second, you say you're seeing a doctor, but are you just seeing a medical doc that is giving you medications? You need someone you can talk to. Third...one of the ways I pull myself up is by helping other people. Sitting around thinking about how unloveable you are is not going to help you! Stay busy, volunteer. Helping other people is great way to get your mind on other things and see that you have value. The worst thing you can do is sit around your house, eating junk. It's only going to contribute to your depression. Take care of yourself.

Answer 4

I think you should listen to what Some Guy You'll Never Know is telling you. And meet up with him, maybe. I am too far and cannot really help you, as I have noticed...
Maybe you guys should meet up and you will find a better way than to kill yourselves..... who knows?

You are not alone. Nobody is alone. Write poetry instead. Listen to music. Go out and help others who are in need. If you don't have support, be support for someone who is in bigger need than you are. That's how karma works... around, around, and all around!!! That's how society works.
If you do good, you'll get some good back. And the more good you do, the more good you get back.

Put down that icecream box now.

And, look up the song "Jenny" by Terranaomi on youtube..... it might help you a lot!!!!!

Answer 5

Since you are doing it the slow way....which will be sooner than you think...and there's no coming back once you are gone....write a letter to each person telling them that you loved them...and that you felt loved by them...and that your decision was yours. Part of them will die, too you know...and in fact one or two of your loved ones will be a living dead thereafter....but you couldn't care much about any of that right now, because all you feel is the pain.
All this for a guy? If all of us would choose this option...there wouldn't be too many of us women left. Please give yourself one more insulin shot...then go to the book store and get the book: The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People...or if you think it's too complex to read right now get: Living The 7 Habits....it will teach you everything....start a new life and become a better you!!!!...instead of giving up just like that,.... because of a man.

Answer 6

Honey, I dont want to sound corny but personally I believe that God is always with us and for that reason we are never alone.

And look at it this way, I care about you, and dont want to see you hurt yourself by eating all that junk. So you are not alone.

Where there is life there is HOPE

I am also diabetic , this is a very dangerous situation that you are putting yourself in. Do you live alone? I dont even want to talk about what death would be like.

I really believe that you need to talk to a responsible adult now. Call the distress line immediately.

I dont know how old you are but am guessing you are much younger than me.

If you were my age you would realize that there will probably be many loves throughout your life (or at least a few)

I am wondering about your own lack of self worth, does it all hinge on your one love? That is not good.

Start loving and caring about yourself more, and you will find people attracted to you.

As I asked, please call the distress line and talk to someone.
I'll be checking back.

Okay sorry about the age thing! It certainly sounds like you have been through and are going through alot.
Me too. I'm glad to hear about your faith. Have you ever noticed at really difficult times in your life when you say to God, please I cant take it anymore , and pray for his help, something happens that you would never expect to ease your burden?
Well that always happens to me.
I believe that suicide is a sin. We are needed on this earth until God takes us.
Obviously youre intelligent to see that you are overdosing yourself , and you are abusing food. It is an escape to relieve hurt, like any other addict. Just about everyone in our dysfunctional society is addicted to something. We need to express our pain in a different (and healthier) way.
I am so sorry that you are suffering from depression, until that is resolved it totally distorts your perception of reality and it is hard to see hope. Once they find the right meds that work for you, you will feel so much better, that dark cloud will lift.
I am so concerned for you , please let me know that you will contact a help line, self help group or doctor ASAP. You need to find someone for support in real life. Please

Answer 7

Alcohol poisoning sounds like a better way to go. I tried it but I kept waking up. That was a year ago, around this time of year. The year before I tried slitting my wrist but the blade wasn't sharp enough, but it was able to leave a scar that's barely noticeable. The year before that I tried pills. Didn't work. THAT'S what you call failure. I've been pissed ever since. Now I don't feel like trying anymore.

But see, your depression doesn't sound as serious as mine (no offence). You're on here talking about it openly as if you're waiting for someone to talk you out of it, or "save" you from your endless abyssal of a life. It all looks like a cry for attention.

If that's the case, let's meet in person and talk about it. Since you wanna die anyway, where's the risk in meeting someone you've only conversed with on-line, in cyberspace? Ask yourself if you can stomach that first, before you go thinking that you can kill yourself. It takes more than just depression to end your life completely. You're a smart person, but you're not paying attention to that fact.

Answer 8

You do need professional help. Please call someone you know well and ask them to help you find a good councilor. If you have no good friend then call one of the help lines and talk. Life sure can get messed up. If you want others to care about you then you have to care abut yourself. Always remember that the most important person in your life should be you. If you do take good care of you then you will have value to others. If you do not then no one really cares and will leave you to yourself and your self pity. You are the one that has to make the difference.

Answer 9

It is suicide. I'm speaking from too much experince on this subject. I've had a close friend and the person I was in a serious relationship with kill themselves. It was over 10 years ago and it still hurts to this day. My friends mom sold the house cause she kept thinking he was there and couldn't stand the guilt. You're hurting now. I promise you suicide is a permante fix for a problem that usually can go away with time. Don't do this to yourself and those around you.

Answer 10

Please go to a hospital crisis unit and you will see, no one is worth your life, it is suicide, what you are doing and what you just wrote is proof.

You have to love yourself more than that person you claim doesn't love you. You can't see it because of the pain you are in, but please don't continue this way, I care about you and I don't even know you, and remember Jesus loves you. Think about your mother and your family, they love you you are never really alone no matter how desperate you may feel, envision the pain and suffering you will inflict on; those who care about you, and don't give up on life, your real prince may be just around the corner, I know its hard to live with diabetes, but you can do it. I will pray for you now. Amen