i am having a nervous breakdown and i dont knoy what to do please help me?

Question

it started about a week a go at night when i was on my computerlokking at some of the new stuff on furry when i came
about this stoy on the web after i read it my hole life changed
and something happed that night to me something that should not have after i read that story i started to feel depressed i am not talkin about a little i meen real depressed so depressed i could not move eat goto the bathroom it stayed that way all night i am a furry and gay and up till that night i would not admit this to my self because of my religion but i new what i was every night when i got on my computer but i some how would tell my self that it was not true but after i read that story i lost my control over that part of my life when i started telling my self this was ho i was the depression losend its grip a little but it came back and now the depression is so bad i hade to tell my self that i was not human that i was a human wolf just to keep it from killing me help i cant last much longer

i am a gay furry but i never let it mess up my life till the night when i was at my computer i came to a story about to furs i had never read furr storys before that night i had allways stuck to the art but that night some thing changed and i decided i would read little that night so i found a nice story i liked a lot after i started reading i could not stop the story was so good but like all good things it ended i was ok at first till it hit my like a rock i was standing at the time i all most fell i got so depessed i could not move or talk or eat just lay in bed and think about the story i had been suppressing my feeling about furry up in till that night when i stoped suppressing them the depression lifted a bit i callled my work to tell them i was not coming then went back to bed then it got real bad i stoped being able to tell what was real and what was not i cryed i did not want to be human but a human wolf i told my self over and over i was a wolf if i had not done this welldeath

it would have realy killed me the depression was that bad i am just a little better right now after telling my self that all night the depression is still so bad i cant eat i have not eaten or been to work in a week i know i have lost my job but i could care less and i have not had food but i did force my self to take like 3 vitamin pills please i cant go to a doctor and i talked to my friends some on the phone but that made it worse because most of my friends are furries to i hope thay never have to be like this please help me i cant last much longer tell me what you think i sould do i tryed reading the story for a 2 time to see if it would make a this go away but it made it worse i have to stay in my furrsuit all the time now if itake it off i cant even move it hits me so fast i all most fall when i tryed to take it off to use the bath room i got dissy and fell in the bath room over in to the tub when i woke up i had pissed my self and had my furrsuit head back on dont rember

putting it back on now i dont take it off if i did there is no telling what would happen
please help me before i pass out tell me how to make this stop

if you do not know what a furry is type it in yahoo search i will all so tell you best i can a furry is some one ho wants to ba an animal a human animal or just a plane old animal thay all so get off or horny by loking at animals or human animals at lest thats the way i see it some will argue with me but i dont have the energy for that right now those are all so the things that are killing me i need to make this stop qick

Answer 1

I'm sorry and I'm not trying to be cruel or funny, but what I got from your story is that you are a religious, depressed, furry, gay wolf?

You might like to read "The Talisman", by Stephen King and Peter Straub. There's a wolf in it that's very nice. It might help you get your thoughts off your troubles.

Answer 2

You need to get some help ASAP for the depression. Go to your local ER if they have a psych unit in the hospital or if you live in a city with a psych hospital go there. It is not something to be ashamed of, if you are really as depressed as you say you are you need meds to help relieve that. I don't know much bout furries although they had a big convention in our city recently. Being gay is nothing to be ashamed of even if you are a religious person. Also try talking to your priest/minister/rabbi/whatever but AFTER you get help for the depression. Good luck and I'll pray for you too.

Answer 3

Something that might be useful to point out, non-organic based depression (bad brain chemicals) is usually anger that's turned inwards at yourself... Sounds to me like you would have to be angry about the incompatability of your sexuality and the religious doctrine you adhere to, and since it doesn't look like either one is going to give an inch for the other your rage has no where to go but onto yourself, try and keep that in mind: it's missplaced anger.

Go see a doctor, you're in a lot of distress and need and really deserve some help.

And what the hell is all this furriness about anyway?

Answer 4

Hi ya, my what a state you have got yourself into firstly you must go to your Dr and talk to him/her depression is treatable and nothing to get so worked up about,please for give me but i have no idea what a furry is meant to be,but i do understand what gay is,are you having trouble coming to terms with this? i'am not gay but i like gay people and have nothing against them at all,as far as i'am concernd this is the way you were born,and thank fully these days it is not as taboo as it used to be for you,but you are in need of medical help and please don't be scared about this as there is no need to be hoestly,i wish you well and make that appointment asap,good luck my friend

Answer 5

You are a good person and have good insights into yourself.

Please go to a hospital mental health walk-in clinic or call a helpline and get someone to talk you through this. Do it right now. Do not wait.

Answer 6

I could not understand what exactly happened for you....
but as long as i know... you could not accept that that story is not real ... something in your mind... some thing that haven't accept that story is not true.. so you have to accept that , that story is not true from your soul

Answer 7

um you need 2 go get help NOW. Call 911 'cause you sound mental

Answer 8

Chill, watch some tv, call your doctor in the morning.

Answer 9

ull get over it but talk to someone call 911 or go see a shrink

Answer 10

see a doc