I think im going crazy... What do u think?

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I don't know what to do!?!?! Im such a ****** idiot!!! I can't stand myself. Im sick of this ****! My mom is making me wear my Effin brace and Im sick of it. I stopped wearing it for like... Almost the whole break now.. My back is getting big.. Like a hunchback... I am one... And I admit it. I dont freakin care if I have surgery!!!! I dont care.. Now I guess to them.. (MOm and dad..) Im out of my mind... SO now they are going to make me see a counselor.. And im pissed off. I knoe what im getting myself into.. ****. I have friends that have scoliosis.. They tell me there fine now.. I know whats going to happen. Yes I will be in pain.. You know what? I dont know what to do?! I dont want a medal rod in my back... I dont want my back cut open.. I dont want anything!! Im telling u all this.. Just so u will know what im going threw.. and U can help me out along the way and help me make an easy desition.. Why does all this have to happen to me? I know there are alot worse things that can happen.. And.. Obviously.. (OKay okay.. This sounds selfish) Just like anyone else I wish it wasnt me.. I mean.. If It wasnt me I wouldnt feel it. I cant say I have a bad life.. Cause O have the most wonderful people in my life.. (some bad too) I dont even know if this makes sence... Whatever happens.. Happens I guess. Im sick of all the questions.. And all the people thinking Im a freak and all the freakin people staring at me. No-one knoes how I feel. Its my body.. I know how I feel. Or.. Maybe I dont.. I dont make any sence... I dont know what to do.. cfn hwklrjh gtybgthnhjbn lknbljdvljdsbglkajdfbglkdfjgb;ier dfmbn;odfajhnga;jkgh;erjgh;rkjyh;aotj a'tjnnhjlhfklklSLK:JG. IM MAD!!!!!!!! i DONT KNOE.. ahh! i dont knoe what im talking about!!!!!!! ahhhhhhh!!!!! bye!!

(I have scoliosis So I wear a back brace)

Answer 1

my sister went thru what you are going thru. she was in junior high and had to wear a brace. She's also had 3 operations for her scoliosis and she now has a rod in her back. if your friends are real friends then they will support you and be there for you. I don't think you're crazy, you're just scared,confused and worried. Please talk to your doctor about your concerns. BTW, my sister just had a baby last year. She has a slight hunch to her back but you wouldn't know without looking for it. My sister felt the same way you do, but honestly, as time goes on, it becomes easier to accept. Wear your brace, have the surgery if necessary and you'll be glad you did. If not, you just may make things worse in the long run. Good luck!

Answer 2

First, you have to find ways to be happy the way you are. It sounds like in many ways you are but like many people with persistent problems you can't make this one go away.
I do not have scoliosis but i do have back pain. It has progressively become worse over the years. In hindsight, there are many things I could and should have done to keep it from getting worse.
I am no Dr., but from what I understand, the intent of bracing is to prevent further deformity. I would recommend that you follow your doctor's advice. I'm sure no one (including yourself) wants to see you get worse. I suspect that if you are still growing, you probably need to suck it up and wear the brace - at least until you are fully grown and can investigate other options.
Hang in there. Other kids aren't very nice but when they get older, most will be ashamed for teasing you. Most are probably ashamed now but too immature to deal with it.
My advice would be to find a passion in life. Make a positive difference. Focus on the good instead of the bad. Do your research and follow the doctors advice.

Answer 3

lol, Im 15 and I create a world for myself, and I'm not crazy, Im actually hoping to put my world on paper one day and write a novel. I think your only crazy if you lose touch with reality, I dont think im crazy in that way because I KNOW my world is fake, it's my imagination, I created it when I was 3 and Im going to embrace it and hopefully turn it into a story my children will read. If you honestly think you are on the verge of going insane, you can privately see a social worker outside of school, or in school. I am positive every school has a social worker, and they only tell your parents that you are seeing them if your about to do something dangerous and/or lifethreatening

Answer 4

No, you're not crazy. You're just tired of wearing something that feels yucky and makes you feel like crud about yourself. Here's the thing....if you don't wear that brace, you'll either have to have surgery OR you will be in terrible pain for the rest of your life. I know a few people who didn't wear their brace--some had the surgery (which was horribly painful and took a long time to heal). Others didn't have the surgery--their backs became so bad that their internal organs were affected--they were basically crushing their insides! Your Mom and Dad just don't want you to go through what the people I know have gone through. It's awful. And they don't understand why you don't want treatment. That's why they want you to go to counseling. Just be honest with them. Tell them why you feel the way you feel. But you NEED to have treatment. Scloleosis is NOT something to be taken lightly. It can lead to terrible pain and even death.

Answer 5

I know how you feel about having to wear the brace and all that stuff. I did have a back operation to fix my back it was the best thing i did. If i hadn't done it i most likely would not be here now. I know you think your parents are being mean and trying to run your life but they're just being parents and worry about you. I suggest asking them to sit down and talk with you patiently so you can tell them how you feel.

Answer 6

It's okay to feel frustrated and angry about your situation. Kids at school can be cruel and stare. But you need to have some perspective. The brace is temporary. What about people that go through life permanently disfigured or disabled? Hopefully, you'll never have to deal with that. This is something that is hard for you to deal with a this MOMENT.... It isn't permanent. There are people that will never be "normal" and would give anything to be in your shoes.

Answer 7

Slow down honey! Obviously, you are upset, and rightfully so! I have had a pretty rough road medically myself. It can really be overwhelming! I have been told that God does not give us anymore than we can handle!I know, it's frustrating to hear things like that. But in the long run, you may find it to be true.
Take a stand, tell your parents and your doctor(s) how you really feel.
The decision is yours, and it's hard to make that decision. Try writing a list of the advantages and disadvantages of having the surgery, and of not having the surgery. It is your life.
I wish you the best!

Answer 8

Nope you are not crazy, just confused. I know you must be in pain emotionally, but don't worry people always stare. People are curious by nature.. I think you should listen to your parents they love you and know what is best for you. They are the ones that would love you and take care of you no matter what. It's hard to believe this when you do not have kids of your own but one day when you are a parent you'll understand. I know, I am a young like you and I am also a parent...

Answer 9

Hey Hey calm down! I have no idea what to say! Your so upset! But who wouldn't be! But I do care from here in WA state and hope things brighten up in your life! I know there's a smile in there somewhere! I really do care!

Answer 10

I understand you... try to see things from your parents side: would you be happy to have your child in the same situation? You should be grateful for their caring support and please try to make all around you happier, at least by cooperating